#ranting;

LET’S CUT TO THE CHASE. 

EVERYTIME I REBLOG SOMETHING VAGUELY HORNY OR POST A SELFIE THAT SHOWS SOME SKIN, PEOPLE COMPLAIN.

OTHER PEOPLE MAKE HORNY POSTS ALL THE TIME, NO ONE BITCHES ABOUT THAT. WHEN I DO IT IT’S WEIRD, BUT WHEN ANYONE ELSE DOES IT IT’S FUN AND ENTERTAINING? ARE YOU FUCKING KIDDING ME? THE MAJORITY OF YOU HAVE HORNY BLOGS BUT NO ONE GOES “DON’T YOU HAVE A SIDEBLOG FOR THAT?” AT Y’ALL, BUT IT’S FINE TO DO IT TO ME?

REAL TALK, I’M FRUSTRATED THAT I GET TREATED ONE WAY, BUT OTHER PEOPLE DOING THE EXACT SAME THING I DO DON’T GET THE SAME RESPONSE OR TREATMENT. I’M NOT MAD AT OTHER PEOPLE FOR HORNYPOSTING OR THEIR NUDES, I REALLY DON’T CARE WHAT OTHER PEOPLE POST. IT’S THE DOUBLE STANDARDS THAT’S GOT ME FEELING SHITTY. 

IF IT’S NOT OKAY FOR ME TO DO, WHY IS IT OKAY FOR EVERYONE ELSE? THE POKING FUN AT ME FOR DOING THE SAME SHIT EVERYONE ELSE DOES ISN'T FUN FOR ME AND IS ACTUALLY HURTFUL, I’M TIRED OF BEING QUIET ABOUT THE FACT THAT IT’S HURTFUL. REPEATEDLY BEING CALLED A TWINK AND A CATBOY IS FUCKING TIRESOME AND I’M SICK OF IT. IT’S DIFFERENT IF SOMEONE I LIKE DOES IT, BUT THE CATBOY JOKES ARE OLD. THE TWINK JOKES ARE OLD. THEY’RE NOT FUNNY, I DON’T ENJOY THEM, DON’T MAKE THEM AT ME. 

JUST IN CASE ANYONE THINKS I’M VAGUING THEM. IN BIG BOLD LETTERS: I AM NOT VAGUING ABOUT ANYONE. I DON’T CARE THAT YOU HORNY POST OR POST NUDES. I’M NOT MAD AT YOU OR ABOUT YOUR POSTS. I’M TIRED OF BEING MADE FUN OF. DON’T READ THIS LIKE A VAGUE POST. THIS ISN’T ABOUT ANY SINGLE PERSON. THE ONLY REASON I’M NOT MESSAGING INDIVIDUALS THAT HAVE MADE FUN OF ME IS BECAUSE TOO GODDAMN MANY OF YOU HAVE DONE IT TO ADDRESS PRIVATELY.

Why do I always owe people apologies? Why do I always owe people things in general?

I do a lot of shit for people and never, EVER expect ANYTHING in return. Hell I never even expect people to be nice to me even when I’M nice to them.

I accidentally take people around me for granted sometimes, it has been pointed out to me a few times and yeah I noticed it, and I know why it’s happened.  But people take ME and my KINDNESS for granted a lot too.

I’m pissed. Stressed. VERY unhappy and wishing I was dead but there’s too many people who love me and want me to stick around.