#rantfeatures

Massively struggling to do work and keep a social life. I feel bad, I’ve barely seen my family or my friends and if I do I feel worried about the amount of work I have to complete. It’s Christmas and I should be surrounding myself in a bubble of social happiness but instead I feel like I have to hide away and work all day just to get this complete for January. I wish I could just pause time and work for like 2 weeks straight and then come back and be social and have a Christmas. To top it all off It’s difficult because It’s the first Christmas without my nan and I feel weird and sad, I can’t even visit the cemetery with all my family tomorrow because I’m working overtime. THIS IS THE WORST MONTH EVER. 

Chances are you'll read this and think exactly what I thought when I was reading through my Tumblr posts from a year or two ago "What was I thinking?!" I'm posting this so that future me can look back on this and be happy. I'll be graduating (hopefully) in the summer and at the moment I feel very little passion to my course or even to the future of my career as a graphic designer. After looking up jobs online they all seem like they'd bore me and that I'd be creating 1 hour leaflet jobs for plumbers. I don't know what I want anymore and I hope in a year or so when you read this you are happy and laughing at this. If you're in a job that makes you dread waking up every morning, look for another. If you're still processing people's naked photos in the photo centre, run! If you haven't bloody renewed your passport yet, go do it now! Sincerely, Currently fed-up and uninspired by life past me