I honestly cant handle it right now
I opened myself up in ways I never even did in relationships and now im hurt and have nothing to do to fix that because I built a dependency
A dependency that I knew I should have never let happen but fuck it if it didnt feel nice for once..
well now im paying for it in the worst ways possible
I just cant stop thinking about them and all my shitty mistakes or things ive done and now i cant stop thinking how worthless I am and barely holding onto not self harming to make it stop or even doing something to just make it all stop, everything. I've never felt so powerless and all I want to do is cry and be loved on and i cant even have that anymore no one is on and im alone
Alone like I always am and I just want to die to make it all stop
Im sick of it just sick why cant i just be normal and be happy and not so poor and miserable white trash bc thats what i am whiny white trash whose issues are fucking stupid and nothing compared to others what do I ahve to complain about
