It’s been 100 yrs but I finally worked up the courage to draw my Sassy boy friend Sasster ( @stealthnerd son) again. However I wont post anything until I make a few more sketches of him and Gen. Plus the first one I did i made his face too long whoops.
Why did i use the word courage you say? Well... I’ll tell you why.
You see, I started feeling pressured that i needed to draw Genster all the time and if I didn’t, no one would pay attention to my art. Then I got into Bendy and I noticed people started paying attention to me even though I wasn’t drawing Genster. Then villainous came along and still people liked my artwork. So... the idea of drawing anything Undertale related made me feel... anxious. Because I thought if I started drawing Undertale stuff again, I would be demanded to draw it again.
Also, I look at some of my fellow artist who have time to interact with artwork to each other and it started to make me feel like I have to do the same, or to be more frank, people expected that from me. I’ve learned to ignore these feeling but ever now and then they find away to get back into my ears again.
Honestly, I am not fast enough nor skill enough to do such things now but maybe one day I will... Plus i don’t have much time to do that or, let me rephrase, I don’t give myself enough time. Pus controlling parents don’t help either. It also doesn’t help when some of the stuff you work your hardest on doesn’t get much love, telling me I wasted hours of hard work for nothing or I didn’t do enough even though I did my best.
I still like drawing Sasster its just i started feeling pressured and started avoiding drawing him. Now I feel more free about it and will draw him and the ship whenever I feel the inspiration. I took too many things on at once and it back fired for me. Now I’m learning to to not rely on how many like/reblogs my art work gets but for those few who do enjoy and show it. I can never draw for my self alone. I only get upset and spend too much time on fixing everything. I draw to make others happy. And to share my love for something with everyone else.
I hope you all understand and will forgive me for not bring this to anyone attention... This is not aimed at anyone, this is just me venting and nothing more.