#ranirambles

I hit 50 followers yesterday! Thank you so much everyone. It means a lot to me that there are people out there that enjoy reading my Sims story! It’s a ton of fun, but it’s also rewarding to me and gives me such joy every time someone follows me.

I would love to give something to show my appreciation. I’m not as prepared for this milestone as I was the 40 follower eye liner gift. I have another liner in progress that adds a little bit to the last one. Hopefully I’ll get that finished up soon!

Well Everyone, it has come to my attention that I should post more often 😅 Currently I'm posting around every other day and I can see how that makes the story feel slow.

I think what I'm going to do is prepare a bunch of posts and put them up on Tumblr one after the other for a day or two and then have about a week of a break between the flurries of posts so that I can take that time to compile more posts. The thing is I mostly have the weekends and maybe an hour, sometimes two hours, after work each day of game time available to me but let's face it, I don't get on my computer every day after work. Needless to say I don't have a lot of time to make it so that I am posting every single day nor several times a day. I think this will be the best option for my Tumblr account. As it stands, this time of year is my busiest as far as being active with other activities. I recently discovered kayaking and have been going every weekend for the past 3 weeks. It leaves me super tired so I haven't been giving my story the time that I used to. I have 2 more story posts in my drafts folder prepared to be posted and beyond that I have literally nothing else, no pictures from my game whatsoever to even start the layout of the images or working in Gimp to add text. I may have some time tonight and a few solid hours this Sunday to get pictures taken in game but then I don't know when I'll be able to put the pictures together with text. I'm going on vacation next weekend so I guess you can say I'll be on hiatus after these next two story posts! I don't mean to make excuses, I'm just setting the expectations.

I hate that feeling when I’m about to hit that post button and I think, “But wait, what if that won’t make sense for the story? What if the actions of the character in this scene undermine what I have set for the next scene? What if what they do later doesn’t really make sense based on what they say in a previous scene? What if there’s too many holes in the plot? What if it doesn’t flow? What if I didn’t think that through enough? What if [insert this and that]?”

And then I remember. This is supposed to be fun. I’m not making money for this. I do this in my free time. It doesn’t need to be perfect. I’ll learn along the way. My story telling will get better (I hope). For now, it’s good enough.

And then I hit the post button. And then I sweat.

I would like my anxiety to go away with time, but I know that’s highly unlikely. I know that I will feel the anxiety every time I post something because that’s just how I am. But in my mind, I strongly believe that feeling the anxiety isn’t what matters. It’s the choice of pushing through it or not.

Woah! When did I reach 20 followers?! This is awesome, thank you all for sticking around!