#randomblogs

Its been awhile since I've post something in here, a lot of change since then. So i gotta do some catching up of all the things that happen haha, been to busy lately but yeah..

"It's inevitable." He woefully muttered. It's been a while since we ate at this diner. And it almost felt foreign when we stepped inside.

"What?" I asked.

"Getting abandoned by someone you unquestionably thought won't." As he carelessly spin his fork around his plate of pasta.

It's the first time I saw loneliness in his eyes. For three years that we've been friends, all he showed me was his jolliness, how he makes every dull moment sprout into a tree of laughter in just a matter of seconds. Always finding a way to make everyone smile.

But right now, after he said that sentence, it felt different. It's like he showed me a version of himself from an alternate universe.

"What's worse is, you don't even know why. It's like they handed you a blank piece of paper with the word ‘goodbye’ in it. But instead of a period, preceded it with a comma. Then they're gone." He continued slowly, staring at his glass of water instead of looking at his still spinning fork.

"But it doesn't really matter," he immediately added. This time I saw his eyes turned a little misty. "because who are we kidding? People will come, and some people who goes, doesn't just leave. They also leave memories, yet we treat each other like total strangers."

I sat there, staring blankly at the kids playing. Running around the grass, laughing under the tired sun.

How old is this bench? I asked myself. Older than me, I guess? And how many kids have made this park their playground, joyfully chasing each other and not caring about anything?

And then I thought about them.

“Why..” I uttered softly. Replaying every happy moments in my head.

“Sometimes dear, no one’s pushing anyone away. They leave by choice.”

I looked to my right. He folded his newspaper, grabbed his coffee from the armrest and left. I didn’t even notice the old man beside me.

And as he walked farther away from where I sat, I realized, they didn’t push me away.

I don’t even remember the last time I stayed up this late....just browsing on the internet and watching videos. Blame it on the Miss Universe controversy! But I am almost so sure that my body clock will wake me up at 7 am and I won’t be able to fall back asleep again. Welcome to adulthood, Mylyn. This is why I don’t sleep late (or early) anymore lol my 24 year old body cannot keep up with all-nighters anymore. But maybe my future 30 something body will have to stay up later = mom life (but we’ll talk about that later).

Some thoughts running through my head right now:

1. Miss Universe! Yaaayy! Philippines won...! But I am low key proud because Filipinos are sooo in your face proud, especially in social media! But yesss, definitely excited that we finally won the title after so many years!

2. Fam time = this time last year has been very difficult for our family. But I am thankful that God is slowly but surely mending the broken pieces together. I am grateful for my family! Sometimes, it takes trials and rough times to be able to truly support and love one another. 

....okay I gotta sleep now cuz I’m really sleepyyy LOL 

yupp, Mylyn can’t pull an all-nighter.