#random vulnerable post.

i envy people who can go without a partner, or somebody in general for a long period of time. they can live freely, happily without NEEDING that attention. i. cant even resist the urge to text someone while they're asleep. it's so embarrassing. im ashamed of myself. im never normal in relationships, i get so obsessed i feel violent when im not a top priority to them. its disgusting. im so fucked. nobody will want me, truly at least. it's good in theory but hell when i actually show interest. i want to be needed, but im not even wanted. fuck my life. bleh.