#random tangent

it was pointless and racist of me to even include that at all.

I should've just not included it whatsoever or said "subjectively" like I did with the other points, because in hindsight, I can see how that would be a reductive and racist thing to do, as it arguably is racially profiling and incredibly disrespectful to ethnic minorities, but for some reason, at the time I thought specifying "white-coded" would've implied subjectivity, but no, you're right, it was still profiling in the end, that's entirely my mistake.

You're right to be mad, it was a disgusting thing to do, and I promise that you won't find me doing anything like that again.

I'm sorry.

dawg I don't even know who you're talking about but the fact that you're apologizing for it is a great thing.

I went through a nasty depression + ongoing-identity-crisis so I know firsthand how difficult it is to change. Understanding that you have a problem that needs fixing is the first step; then, apologizing for your mistakes to whoever it is relevant, including yourself, is my recommendation in general. And the final, most difficult part, is changing your habits.

Habits, as the one Buddhism book I read so far has taught me, show how we truly are, because it reflects how we would react in more situations than just being in the presence of your crush or whatever.

If we choose to use an analogy with the scientific method here, we cannot determine that we have changed unless we can prove the hypothesis that we have done things differently enough times to say that maybe, just maybe we might have changed. We're still open to suggestion. It could be proved wrong at any time.

So in that way, changing our habits, changing the way we would react in most situations, we can change ourselves.

cursed with artblock on a huge scale

yet here i am. on roblox. making my own designs for characters in an scp au that i roleplay. on roblox.

FUCKING ROBLOX

imsuchafuckingchud

love it here.... trust. noifuckingdont

Leane Zhu Chao everybody! *claps*

Splinter's a dad who knows his mistakes and is trying to make it better. He was grieving what he lost of humanity and became neglectful in his own depression. It took him so long to actually start to change the way he treated his sons, because he realized his faults and realized how much his sons meant to him. He was arguably closer to April than his sons because she reminded him of what he used to be. That was more comforting than being around his boys. He realized his trauma then decided to fix himself based off of that. He cares so much about his sons, just has a rough time showing it through his own immaturity and his own grief. He doesnt know how to handle Draxum in the beginning due to the fact that it's a major trauma for him. He had to grow a trust towards Draxum to be there for the boys, and even then I cant imagine they got along after.

While Draxum was literally a supervillain who got reformed. He had to sit with what hes done and decided to change through it after he fell from his position. He got shown kindness, something he wasnt used to due to his own brutality, and didnt know what to do with it. He grew depressed at the lack of his powers and let Mikey pick him up. He then grew attached to the boys and as we saw. Mikey's compassion and his faith in Draxum's ability made him softer towards humans. He could finally see the light of the world and decide he could have a family through it. His relationship with Splinter is strained due to their shared pasts. But its something neither of them regret due to their sons. Theyd both do anything to save them.

They aren't bad fathers, and I don't believe that after season two, one of them should be on a higher pedestal than the other. They both have their flaws and both had to learn how to overcome them. Basically they're a divorced couple who had to learn from their past mistakes and get past the previous toxicity they used to have in order to help their children. The dysfunctional parents that are trying to learn to be functional in their already kinda-functional family. (But the functional is just the siblings)