#random shit talk

Hey guys.. I don't want to look like a cry baby or something but there is something bothering me all the time.

I am seriously jealous of other artist. Might be nothing new but this (and the fact that I can barely draw on my shitty PC) is a reason why I don't have so much motivation to draw. I really want to but everytime I am looking at other artist my motivation is gone within a second (no. Money is not a motivation for me). I know I shouldn't look this way at other artist but I can't.

Is there a way to be NOT jealous at other artists?

Thanks for reading and sorry for bothering you with it.

There are so many people in the waitering industry who are extremely conceited. Sorry I didn't practice holding four plates at home, before leaving an application. Waitering is simple. Maybe stress-full at times, hell I've worked before. They hold it to be this incredible olympic sport, in which you must have practiced at least since your birth. Bitches. Sorry I was waisting all this time getting an education. I obviously should have turned to your restaurant first. Or at least practiced instead of doing homework. AND MY GOD what was I even THINKING leaving an APPLICATION without having learned to MEMORIZE their MENU? 

And just because I don't wear high heels, and don't have a chest like Pamela Anderson, does not mean I'm a stupid 12 year-old girl. Those kind of people who just feels the need to downgrade others with all that their authority can bear. 

And what's with this new modern coffee industry? "I'm sorry, we only hire people with an extreme interest in coffee." I know how to use the freaking steamer, I know the different coffee drinks by hand even though I haven't taken that certain obvious degree in coffee at this great coffee university in the oh so well-known coffee town of all the coffee of the planet. planet-coffeeeee, you know the one Shutttttt uuuuuppppppppppp