#random personal note

I catch myself almost starting conversations with an apology

And the worst part is? They're concerned about me and telling me I should move somewhere safer for my physical and mental health, and honestly sometimes being in this country is like living with an unstable parent

For me a lot of it is coming across something really idiomatic or phrased in an odd way and being able to get it (or at least a general understanding) and remembering how I used to feel when coming across things like that

...

Because on the one hand? The mood is celebratory - I have a greater understanding of things

And on the other hand, it's a little bit compassionate - I know I would have struggled before and I am not struggling (as much) now, and recognizing that it is hard and weird and maybe above my past skill level, or realizing I wouldn't learn really what something meant until years later

I just want to know how many syllables I'm legally obligated to say and deshidratado/a feels correct but also feels like a lot of syllables for you, me, and everyone else