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Perpetually Single
I am not entirely sure if the word “Perpetually” is what I am looking for when describing my love life. However its probably the most accurate description as far as me and relationships go.
Ice queen, loveless, wild woman, spinster …LMAO…there are endless names I have heard myself called, or called myself even because the truth is; I am in love with my freedom. Relationships aren’t all bad, and shouldn’t be viewed as being tied down or chained down. I am not here to bash monogamy or marriage. I just believe that it shouldn’t feel like a life sentence in a maximum security prison when you get married. I feel like I shouldn’t have to change every fiber of myself, and personality to satisfy someone else.
“You are really amazing and beautiful, why are you still single?”
The truth is very simple. I am unwilling to compromise on a lot of typical romance/dating issues. When I say unwilling, I mean like “Oh I have no interest in whatever task/date/activity/menial task you have planned so I won’t be joining you, but you go on.” No but seriously. 90% of the time these activities interfere with me spending time with my kids, and that time is fleeting. I have the rest of my life to find a partner, however the years my boys will want to spend with their totally weird and uncool mother are numbered. They will always be first, I owe them my life. The other 10% is just because its not something I would even want to do, or it conflicts with something I am already doing. I was married for 4 years to a controlling tyrant. I have to deal with that narcissistic tyrant till the boys are old enough to tell him to fuck off. Have you ever gone to war with a narcissist? It’s inhumanely exhausting. I mean when you have to scan grocery receipts and account for every single cent you’ve spent EVERY day he is offshore working and you are constantly defending your decisions as a mother because he is always attacking the only thing linking you to him after all these years …It tends to warp your way of thinking. I wouldn’t say I choose to be single, because I have dated…and love to go out on dates but I do PREFER to be single because then I know I only have to worry about myself.
