I'm so lost. I dont know how I supposed to feel, think and be myself. and I even don't know what can make me feel Happy.
Many people say that I'm a kind and good girl. I always want to be like that and try to be nice but still being me. I'm happy that people tells me just like that but that makes me feel not uncomfortable sometimes and feel cramped.
It makes me feel like I have to be always good, nice, conceal the negative feeling and be positive all the time.
I know that I need to appericiate more than I do now, but I can't stop thinking "what if." oviously it is my fault because apparently if somebody was here instead of me, she/he would do better than me and I know it. so it is not the fault of this environment but I always think that if i was in the different environment... moreover there was different possivility of my life here. sigh... I dont wanna think like this anymore.
SUPER NEGARIVE !!!!! IT'S BECAUSE OF THE RAIN!!!!!lol
