Today was the last serve of Emerge 2018 and it was bittersweet. And bittersweet is probably an understatement. It was more bitter than sweet for me. In a good way. • No words can describe how I'm even feeling about this community that has been built the past two years. I didn't even realise how close to my heart this bunch has grown to be until God said to give it back to Him. My heart broke. I felt like a piece of my heart was taken away from me as I struggled to yield to what the Lord was telling me to do. I wanted to hold on to this, but no, God said no. • I always told people "ministry belongs to God" but never really knew what it meant until God said to give it back to Him. My heart is still an open wound as I type this, and tears still well up in my eyes.. but I know what's the wiser thing to do. And that is to yield to the Lord and do what He says even if it's difficult because Jesus is better than anything else that I can have in this world. • God, thank You for Your grace upon my life. Thank You for being gentle in the way You told me to give back the ministry to You. Thank You for knowing what's best for me. Lord, it's still painful, but I'm trusting You. I'm holding on to You. I'm dropping my anchor deep into You. For only You alone can satisfy me. Not young people, not the ministry. So take me, lead me and use me, Lord. • Three things I've learnt the last two years: 1. Leadership is a call to know God deeper. 2. All are called to a relationship with God. 3. Ministry is about leading people to begin a relationship with God by having relationships with them. • And Philippains 3:1-11 will probably mean much more to me now as I shared this for the last pre service. And signing off for now! #rageyouth #rageishome #thisiswhathomeshouldfeellike #rageemerge (at Grace Assembly Of God Singapore) https://www.instagram.com/p/BsAahRLhwA2/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=jxs9p4m24zvy
