#raant

oh fuck, where to start? 

I love traditional bc i have more control of my hand and just overall i know what im doing, sksksksk. 

But also if u fuck up? you FUCK up. Without mentioning some materials can go wrong with others and they cost a TON of money. I love traditional but she is very high maintenance. 

And then we have digital that u have layers effects which are a LIFE saver and honestly love how they look, I can make little shortcuts easier as: i make a logo and then added on the character and same with tattoos. Ctrl+z my beloved. 

But my two main issues: tablets, especially this funky fella:

  my wrists, HURTS. My learning curve had a LOT to do personally with the way I hold the pen, bc sometimes the cursor would go to the moon and back if I didn't the other thing is art programs or well, memory usage, pencils all the works. 

I doodle a LOT and I have like 620 layes on a program if not more (I know, tf is wrong with me) but I know when a program is good when they have the automatic save system that allows me to reload what i was doing before my PC crashed on me. Also, There's more programs whose interface is so ‘hostile’: ‘what does this do?’ ‘what is that?’ ‘what's going on????’ or PSD or CSP in my case. I get they saturate the place so that u know what its offering but it also its so complicated when ur trying to know wtf are u doing. 

The struggle to convince her and it is her right to refuse

But then

Hearing the other doctor make nasty remarks about anti autoritarian parents

Screw you bastard

At least I mostly know why my girl does things and do not recognize I don't even know that human when they grow up further

I am so angry at everyone

My girl didn't tell me before why she would not like a test

And that doctor has no right to talk that way in front of everyone

And again you're a mother in the middle

one cannot force a child to do a procedure they don't like

And then society in the face of that doctor standing behind you wanting you to please them

And it's engraved so deep to please everyone

That's the most stress I have

Make strategies who do stamp on the toes and where to be forgiving

>mom hears and launches into one of her epic speeches of how we cant waste money and if it works not just use it

bitch who the fuck said i’d use your goddamned money for this? we’ve learned well enough not to ask you for anything regarding money from you lest we hear about it for the next decade or two about how we “owe” you