His heart aches, because oh, what these children have done. He couldnât be there, he couldnât save them all-
He sits next to the boy with a small sigh, glancing over with soft eyes and a bleeding heart.
âDo you want to talk about it?â
Tetsu considers just brushing it off again, like he has so many other times. Part of him is loath to admit heâs so... weak, especially in front of his homeroom teacher and mentor- The one person he wanted to impress most of all.
But Kan-sensei had been there, had more than likely been feeling the same amount of oppressive guilt over his students and the aftermath of the second League of Villains attack.Â
It couldnât hurt to maybe just... vent a little, right?
Sighing roughly, the boy fiddles with his hands in his lap for a lack of better things to do. Even if heâs willing to talk about what has been haunting him, he feels the weight of his teacherâs concerned gaze and the discomfort of that self-awareness makes his chest feel tight.
âEver since the training camp, I just... havenât felt the same. Noises sometimes just set me off, like if theyâre sudden and I canât really figure out what caused it. Most of the time I just get spooked for a bit, but... I was making some deliveries around our neighborhood and a tire blew out somewhere-â
He closes his eyes at the memory, the sudden âbangâ that had sent his heart rate into overdrive. It was like some adrenaline fueled haze had taken over in his mind, sending him back to that time and place. All he could see was that toxic purple mist surrounding him as he stared down the barrel of a revolver, waiting with dread at the click of the hammer being pulled back to load the cartridge.
âIt was my fault that even happened. Kendou even warned me not to go running off on my own and she almost died because I had to go and prove something... What if I hadnât managed to reach her in time? We got lucky and I was too stupid to even recognize how much danger we were in. I think thatâs the worst part, knowing that now. And I canât stop thinking about what might have happened, what could have gone even more wrong.â