#questionnaire.

how do you feel about your couple? why did you pick the person you picked?

“I feel... good about it? I know Roo, and I know how he works, what he likes --- that’s a step up from most of the couplings I’ve gotten during my experiences on the show. Plus I’m attracted to him and exploring that is actually something I wanted to do.”

01 / BASICS

Full Name: Jasper Theodore Lewis Nickname: Jazz Birthday: March 2nd Gender: Transgender male Orientation: Panromantic / Homosexual Astrological Sign: Pisces sun, Virgo moon Spoken Languages: English Birthplace: Wheeling, West Virginia Relationship status: Single (but crushing so ridiculously hard)

2-4 songs that are probably on their iPod 1. NIGHTS by frank ocean 2. GOLD by sir sly 3. AMAZING by kanye west 4. BLEEDING LOVE by leona lewis 

the one place they sometimes end up falling asleep — where they’re not supposed to He’s not supposed to fall asleep in his wetsuit in the shower, but sometimes he does. If he’s spent the entire day out and suddenly it’s four am and he can’t be bothered to peel of his suit, he’s at least considerate enough to pass out in the shower and not on a bed that might not be his. He needs to get a bathtub, it’d be more comfortable to sleep in. 

the game they’d destroy everyone else at Connect Four is the only possible answer. Jamie is an expert at Connect Four. And Tetris. He’s pretty good at Tetris.

the emoji they’d use most often He uses the yellow heart the most because that’s his sister’s favourite. He uses emojis sparingly otherwise.

what they act like when they haven’t had enough sleep Jamie has never had enough sleep, so at this point it’s more a question of how he behaves when he’s pulled an all-nighter: badly.

their preferred hot beverage on really cold nights. or mornings. or whenever. Hot apple cider. And it has to have spices. It’s no good if it’s just sugary warm apple juice.

how they like to comfort/care for themselves when they’re in a slump He gets very withdrawn, and starts spending more time by himself. Usually in the water. But he is always in the water when he’s not at work.

what they wanted to be when they grew up A fireman, or a father. They were mutually exclusive, apparently.

their favorite kind of weather Slightly overcast, so the sun isn’t beating down, but not pounding rain and thundering. If there was a perfect world where he could swim in the rain without it being accompanied by thunder and lightning, he’d take it.

thoughts on their singing voice (decent? terrible? soprano? alto? He doesn’t hate it, but he lives in a city where every other person thinks they can sing and is trying to get a record deal, so he tries to sing quieter than everyone else when he has to sing.

What’s the kindest thing you almost did?  ‘ Saved someone’s life. ’

Is your fear of insomnia stronger than your fear of what awoke you?  ‘ My insomnia is stronger than my fear of it. Nothing can awake someone who’s already awake. ’

Are bonsai cruel?  ‘ I can’t think of any reason why they would be. ’ 

Do you love what you love, or just the feeling?  ‘ I love what I love. Love is love. ’

Your earliest memories: do you look though your young eyes, or look at your young self?  ‘ Strangely, I think I look down at my young self ? ’

Which feels worse: to know that there are people who do more with less talent, or that there are people with more talent?  ‘ They both feel pretty bad. The selfish answer is people with more talent. ’

Do you walk on moving walkways?  ‘ I never thought about how weird this is, but yes, I do. I climb escalators too. ’

Should it make any difference that you knew it was wrong as you were doing it? ‘ Yes. Intent is everything. ’ 

Would you trade actual intelligence for the perception of being smarter?  ‘ No. That seems like the kind of thing that could get you in trouble. ’

Why does it bother you when someone at the next table is having a conversation on a cell phone?  ‘ It doesn’t. Not unless it’s loud or excessively private. Like a call to a doctor or an lover. And then only because it’s too loud or because I don’t want to know a stranger’s personal life intimately. ’

How many years of your life would you trade for the greatest month of your life?  ‘ I don’t think I would give any. That one’s basic math. ’

What would you tell your father, if it were possible?  ‘ “You’re wrong.” ’

Which is changing faster, your body, or your mind?  ‘ My mind. Every second. Every millisecond. ’ 

Is it cruel to tell an old person his prognosis?  ‘ If I was an old person I know I would find it cruel for you not to tell me. ’

Are you in any way angry at your phone?  ‘ It’s charging right now so I can’t take it too far from the outlet and that’s making me angry. There’s always something to be angry about with an iPhone. ’

When you pass a storefront, do you look at what’s inside, look at your reflection, or neither?  ‘ I tend to look at my reflection, especially when it’s so clear. It’s what draws my eyes first. ’

Is there anything you would die for if no one could ever know you died for it?  ‘ I can’t think of anything I love enough to die for. People, maybe. ’

If you could be assured that money wouldn’t make you any small bit happier, would you still want more money?  ‘ Yes. If that money couldn’t make me any happier, than maybe it could make someone else happier. But that creates a strange paradox because the idea of charity makes me happier. I’m not sure. ’

What has been irrevocably spoiled for you?  ‘ Luke. I am your father. ’

If your deepest secret became public, would you be forgiven?  ‘ I would like to think that there are people who are wishing someone with a secret like mine would make theirs known right now. ’

Is your best friend your kindest friend?  ‘ No, I don’t think she is, and I think she would agree with me. ’

Is it any way cruel to give a dog a name?  ‘ It is, it’s cruel of us to attach ourselves to dogs we know we’ll outlive, to call them by their names and treat them like our own children. It makes their loss harder to bear. Which is cruelty. But that doesn’t mean we shouldn’t do it. ’

Is there anything you feel a need to confess?  ‘ Not now. But this question is best asked when I’m tired, or drunk, or lonely, or it’s night and no one is nearby. ’

You know it’s a “murder of crows” and a “wake of buzzards” but it’s a what of ravens, again? ‘ I didn’t know it was a “wake of buzzards”. ’ 

What is it about death that you’re afraid of?  ‘ The uncertainty. The quiet. The loneliness. ’

BASIC

NAME: James Patrick Macnair NICKNAMES: Most of his friends and acquaintances call him Jamie, and that’s his preferred name. His mother and sister call him Jack at home, and his father calls him James and nothing else. His maternal grandmother called him ‘Little Dolphin’ or ‘Little Shadow’ when he was young. AGE: 24 years old BIRTHDAY: 13 May, 1993 GENDER: Cisgender Male PRONOUNS: He/him/his

FAMILY

( miscarriage tw / death tw )

MOTHER: Emma Cecelia Macnair, née O’Conlon   FATHER: William Charles Macnair FAMILY: The Macnair political dynasty, Jamie’s paternal line, rivals the Bushes, or their great rivals, the also Irish-American, liberally-minded Kennedys, save for one thing: no Macnair has ever successfully taken the White House. They’ve been senators, and lieutenant governors, and diplomats, and Patrick Macnair, Jamie’s paternal grandfather was a mere ten million votes from the vice presidency, but none of them have ever succeeded at what truly matters. If William Macnair does not reach Washington, then one of Jamie’s cousins, or Jamie himself, will. They have to.  The O’Conlons are a Boston Irish Brahmin social legacy, and the union of their brightest, most beautiful star, the intelligent, bull-headed, gorgeous Emma O’Conlon with the ambitious, hungry, handsome William Macnair was the reversal of their fortunes, their physical wealth squandered on a series of ill-advised investments by one of her uncles, a mistakenly named patriarch, in the seventies. At first, the couple’s clashes seemed catastrophic, but Emma played the part of Will’s wife easily, and as his own star rose and hers dimmed, she found herself no longer arguing. ‘For the sake of their children.’ Her father died when she was young, she was extremely close with her mother, Bridget, and prior to her mother’s death in 2011, Bridget made it clear to the O’Conlons she believed her child had been replaced by an imposter, a wolf among them.  SIBLINGS: Isobel Bridget Macnair, his twin sister, younger than Jamie by 58 minutes. Their parents had two miscarriages after their birth and did not have any more children after the twins. They refer to Jamie and Isobel as their ‘miracle babies’.

FAMILY EXTENDED

FAVORITE CHILDHOOD MEMORY: He loved the beach even as a child, and their family used to have picnics on the dunes that he misses as an adult.  FAVORITE CHILDHOOD TOY: A stuffed elephant named Babar, after the children’s book character. EMBARRASSING STORY: His mother likes to tell the story of his first word anytime she wants to embarrass him. His first word was not ‘mommy’, or ‘daddy’, but ‘Is’, and Isobel’s first word was ‘mine’.  FAVORITE FAMILY MEMBER: Before she died, his grandmother Bridget. A STORY ABOUT THAT FAMILY MEMBER: She was the closest thing to Indiana Jones you could find in a woman with small children, and rumour has it she was a spy for the OSS during the Second World War. She knew how to pilot small aircraft but never renewed her licence after her youngest child was born.

PHYSICAL ATTRIBUTES

RACE/ETHNICITY: White / Irish-American (with some French and Scots ancestry) NATIONALITY: American HEIGHT: 6′1″ ( He considers his height to be a problem ; Isobel is quite tall as well, 5′10″, as are their parents. ) BUILD: Slim and muscular TATTOOS: One, a little star on his ankle to match someone else’s PIERCINGS: None, but Isobel nearly convinced him to get his ears pierced once HAIR: Always neatly cut, and nearly always soaked in seawater FACIAL HAIR: He can grow a beard easily, but is more likely to be clean-shaven than not, as there’s a belief in his family that stubble is more ‘unkempt’ than ‘handsome’ HAIR COLOR: Brown, lighter because of the sun EYE COLOR: Brown as well DOMINANT HAND: Right-handed, like his mother, his father is left-handed, and Isobel is ambidextrous ( self-taught )  ANOMALIES: An array of freckles ( some might call them moles ) and a prominent birthmark on his neck as well as one on his cheek, slightly above his jaw ACCENT: He would call it standard American, but he tends to use Southern Californian slang as a result of his upbringing there PHYSICAL DISABILITIES: None, though he’s had a number of physical injuries over the years, including numerous concussions, two broken ribs, a fractured wrist, and a torn ligament in his right leg that left him with a limp for quite a while LEARNING DISABILITIES: None, though there was a time he and Isobel were suspected to have ADHD ( Isobel may actually have it, their father didn’t carry on with the evaluation as he believed it would be putting a stigma on them far too early ) ALLERGIES: Some types of pollen, kiwi fruit DISORDERS: Anxiety disorder ( unacknowledged, though he self-medicates with refills of the klonopin prescription he got for ‘a short episode’ a few years ago ) FASHION: Jamie does pride himself on his appearance ( the result of being born into a family that places so much value on appearances ) and he does consider himself to have cultivated a decent, classic wardrobe, when he’s not wearing a wet suit or boxers and a grey t-shirt that was originally white. He uses those looks for campaigning.   NERVOUS TICS: Pushing back his hair, not meeting the person’s eyes QUIRKS: He would consider his favourite food to be ice. Once he specifies granitas, it makes more sense, but he says, quite plainly, ‘ice’. Can crack a coconut open with his bare hands if he tries hard enough.

LIFESTYLE

HOME ADDRESS: He lives in Malibu, in a home he shares with a roommate ( or two, depending on whether the second is away ) situated right on the Pacific RESIDES: Los Angeles, California, United States BORN: Lennox Hill Hospital, Manhattan, New York City RAISED: San Francisco, California, though his family moved to Los Angeles when he was seven, as his father believed he had a better chance in that voting district, considering how deeply, deeply liberal San Francisco was ( not that Los Angeles was really much better, but it was better than San Francisco ) VEHICLE: Tesla Model X he shares with Isobel when she’s home. Their father used it as a pawn for his campaign, seeing as there were certain values he needed to display to be elected in California, and from those values, he chose ‘support of alternative energy sources’. His environmentalism, especially as it concerns global warming and the rising seas, and trash in the Pacific, and landfills, and everything Jamie really cares about, is nearly nonexistent, but he can still point to the electric Tesla his children received for their birthday !  PHONE: iPhone 6, though he has an Android for ‘more secure communication’ he never uses, partially because he’s not a politician and he has nothing to secure. Yet. LAPTOP/COMPUTER: MacBook Pro, 15 inch display, and a Windows tablet for no particular reason. PETS: Two dogs, Alpha and Uno, the former is a labrador-dominant mutt, and the other is a border collie, both were rescued in Los Angeles. Uno is being trained as a search and rescue dog.

HIGH SCHOOL EDUCATION: Jamie and Isobel are graduates of the Harvard-Westlake school, the best education that money could buy in Los Angeles, and the personal hell of anyone who breaks under pressure  COLLEGE EDUCATION: University of California, Los Angeles. Though his first choice was Georgetown, he decided to go to UCLA in order to remain with his family and have a view of the ocean ( the Potomac was nice, but he couldn’t live in it ). MAJOR: Neuroscience MINOR: Spanish CAREER: Medical Student at UCLA, semi-professional surfer EXPERIENCE: He is two years into medical school, and intends to become a surgeon, if he can survive residency at a major hospital without imploding. He’s been surfing for almost 15 years, inexplicably drawn to the Pacific and given his first board by a man who saw something in him, and he can’t be torn away from his boards no matter how hard some people may try. 

POLITICAL AFFILIATION: The Republican Party, through his affiliation with his parents RELIGION: Lapsed Roman Catholic, he was raised in the church with his sister for appearances, and was baptised and took communion but he can’t bring himself to return to Catholicism now, not with all of its cruel scandals and blatant lies BELIEFS: He finds himself praying to a higher power, to God, in his times of great distress, but he feels, logically, as though God’s existence is not possible, leading to an internal conflict only worsened by the vitality placed on religion by the Republican Party MISDEMEANORS AND FELONIES: None. He values his future far too much.  TICKETS AND/OR VIOLATIONS: A few scattered parking tickets that were resolved promptly and without hesitation. They’re impossible to avoid when you’re parking in LA. DRUGS: Klonopin for anxiety, as needed, but he was prescribed it.  SMOKES: No, he needs his lungs to swim ALCOHOL: He drinks ‘socially’, but it’s becoming less and less social DIET: He doesn’t eat red meat and seems to be lactose intolerant so he avoids milk as well

ROMANTIC ORIENTATION: He doesn’t like to label this, he believes he could love someone of any gender. SEXUAL ORIENTATION: Like his romantic orientation, he doesn’t like the idea of labelling himself, especially during a time when he’s quietly experimenting with his sexuality. MARTIAL STATUS: Single, with a few scattered flings, and, his worst fear, he’s coming to like the Zealot in a way he could never have imagined. CHILDREN: He doesn’t have any, and has not ( knowing or unknowingly ) fathered any, but he would like to have some in the future, he thinks. And he would like to adopt whether or not he can conceive with his partner.  AVAILABILITY: If he was in a serious relationship, he would not be, given his deep disdain for cheaters. LOOKING FOR: Someone who will make him feel the way the saltwater does.

LANGUAGES: Jamie took Spanish in high school and liked it enough to continue it in university, and it’s politically advantageous for his parents that he speaks it. He wants to learn Arabic or Farsi to really rile them up, and because he’s always been mesmerised by that script and the way the syllables flow from open mouths. Making his parents angry is small in comparison to understanding poets in their native tongues.

PHOBIAS: He fears death, first and foremost, and has numerous other little anxieties he can’t quite seem to shake ( his fear of nuclear war is quite profound at the moment ). HOBBIES: Surfing, swimming, biking, hiking, soaking up the sun like a lizard, anything that allows him to be outside instead of caged inside. 

ONE BAD HABIT: He leaves cups everywhere, all over his house. ONE GOOD HABIT: He’s very clean and believes strongly in good hygiene, especially as a future surgeon. ONE HABIT THEY CAN’T BREAK: He’s trying to break the cycle of social media addiction and stop checking his phone so often, but he kind of has to, doesn’t he? ONE THEY’VE BROKEN: He’s finally managed to put sunblock on every time he goes out. 

FAVOURITE

LOCATION: The beach behind his house in Malibu SPORTS TEAM: Golden State Warriors on the West Coast, Boston Celtics on the East GAME: He doesn’t play very many, probably Pokemon or Mario Kart because he used to play those with Isobel when they were younger MUSIC: He loves just about every kind of music there is, including country and classical, and has the extraordinary luck of always finding something on the radio he likes SHOWS: His favourite TV show is probably Game of Thrones, because it’s so dramatic and absorbing and it’s a show basically everyone else in the world watches so you’ll never run out of people to discuss it with MOVIES: His all time favourite movie is also Isobel’s favourite movie, ‘Spirited Away’ RADIO STATION: He doesn’t have one, but his favourite Spotify playlist is the ‘Late Night Love’ one, or ‘Poolside Disco’. FOOD: Jamie really loves Thai food, and has attempted to replicate his favourite dishes despite being absolutely shit at cooking. Mangoes are his favourite fruit. He also loves tapas.  BEVERAGE: A Moscow Mule if it’s alcoholic, good old water or cranberry-grape juice if it’s not COLOR: A bright, sunny shade of orange

CHARACTER

MORAL ALIGNMENT: Lawful Good, though he fancies himself Chaotic Neutral like his twin sister MBTI: INFJ with some fluctuation between Thinking and Feeling  MBTI ROLE: The Advocate ENNEAGRAM: Somewhere between Types One and Two ENNEAGRAM ROLE: Between ‘The Helper’ and ‘The Reformer’ TEMPERAMENT: Melancholic  WESTERN ZODIAC: Taurus CHINESE ZODIAC: Rooster PRIMAL SIGN: Beaver  HOGWARTS HOUSE: Gryffindor or Hufflepuff ILVERYMORNY HOUSE: Thunderbird TAROT CARD: The World TV TROPES: Boy Next Door, Creature of Habit, Sugar and Ice Personality, Pacifist, The Cynic, Guilt Complex, Broken Ace, Affectionate Nickname ( Jack ), Big Brother Instinct. SONG: ( that represents them ) Bad Religion, by Frank Ocean

IDEOLOGIES: People deserve to be paid a livable wage for full time work, people deserve health insurance, everyone has the right to dignity, abortion is not murder, global warming is real and a serious threat, America is imperialist. Essentially the exact opposite of every view his father is running on, the views he has to publically support. 

PREFERENCES

coffee or tea? showering in the day or night? taking baths or taking showers? tv and movies writing or reading? platonic and romantic love iced tea or lemonade? ice cream or smoothies? cupcakes or cake? beach or mountains?

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