#queerspacepunk

The Inquisition is different than other places. He is welcomed, for the most part. Not every conversation is a battlefield, nor every relationship a siege. It is different here, Kiernan knows it, and there's no sense in worrying that it will all go to shit at a moment's notice.

Unfortunately, he is not different. He has never been sensible, and sometimes one harsh word is all it takes to drag him back to that dreadful home in Kirkwall.

(But there was no Solas in Kirkwall.)

Ah thank you!!

(Ask me a question from this ask meme about my Dragon Age fandom feelings!)

name a character you wouldn’t mind naming someone after.

Ooh so - fictionally, Anders, I love my boy and will name fictional characters after him. In real life, Isabela is a beautiful name!

name a fandom, ship, or character that you love that others would send you hate mail for liking.

Anders, Fenders - though like a lot of Anders and Fenders fans, I’m afraid that only makes me like them more

Bonus+ Create your own question: Do you have a favourite character type?

working title: gay solavellan isn't real it can't hurt me

This was the first fic I'd posted in over 4 years, having orphaned or deleted all of my work from 2015-2017(?). Letting people read my writing again was terrifying but I got so much positive feedback (especially from @queerspacepunk) that it helped me get my confidence back as a writer. I had a great time working with Ty on it as well and I rlly do owe them my life for their help with the dialogue and their ability to give critical feedback in a way that wasn't discouraging.

Kiernan and Solas are so very dear to me and it was so exciting to have a completed fic with them that I could share with others. Some good old fashioned h/c and mutual pining as the set up for a fic that's mostly centered on how people talk about and cope with mental health and trauma in Thedas. with april an ocean away | M/M | G | 1,828 | Adaar/The Iron Bull (/Dorian Pavus)

working title: ehsaan feeds his chickens

Writing about Ehsaan's specific struggles with mental illness has been harder for me than writing about Kiernan's because they're much different than mine, but I try to do a lot of research and the assistance I've gotten from people with OCD has been absolutely invaluable.

I rlly love this fic. It's much lighter in tone than for one to handle but thematically... at least kind of similar? I love Ehsaan, I love writing his pov because he is just. so tender hearted. and I love that when I write things with him, I'm able to indulge in a lot of nostalgia for the place I grew up. I am also learning that I just. love writing about people interacting with their pets. ain't you handsome when you're high | M/M | E | ≈6,500 | Adaar/The Iron Bull (/Dorian Pavus)

working title: Let's Talk About Mental Health Part 3

This isn't ready to be posted but it is mostly finished and I'm including it because I'm Excited about it. More h/c, more chicken feeding, and more animals with silly names, but this time there's smut at the end.

MARKERS GKEJJCENVJFJFFJBF i’m going to pass out

I personally don’t mind the term deadname, especially bc it makes cis people uncomfortable, but my default if I’m not saying that is “given name.” I totally see your reasoning behind it but I also don’t mind “chosen name” because like… yes! I chose this name for myself and that’s an important aspect of who I am! but plenty of people probably wouldn’t want that information broadcast to all and sundry

oh boy yknow I haven’t given a ton of thought to this! both rhian and kiernan have not-names but I have no idea what they are nor do I ever plan on coming up with ones (it’s not of my business lol). but like… they picked their actual names after joining the dalish, which leaves a pretty big chunk of time sort of unaccounted for bc they stayed in ostwick for 4 years before going to clan lavellan. like i’ve always imagined that rhian had something he called kiernan in private but not in front of their mother because they’d both get in trouble for it but there’d be no reason to keep it secret after leaving kirkwall.

when i wrote a little thing abt the two of them as children i had rhian call him kiernan even though it was Historical Revisionism gnsjdjdjdj

OH WAIT I BET IT WAS JUST “bugs”. which is an extremely easy nickname to get to and now i’m having a vision of varric trying that out for him and kiernan snapping because 1) he hasn’t been called that in years and 2) no one but rhian is allowed to call him that

i think this faded out when they got to ostwick and kiernan in particular was trying on a dozen names that never fit quite right.

as for Rhian, I think picking a new name had less to do with dysphoria and more to do with just leaving his old life behind as much as possible. i’m still not coming up with an old name for him but I don’t think he would’ve had an issue with kiernan calling him by that until it was changed

oh boy this isn’t smth i’ve thought a lot about,,,

i think they’re Mostly complimentary types of ND and that’s something that kiernan struggles with—feeling like he has to learn how to act like a person in the same way that cole does doesn’t feel Great. it frustrates him that he seems to struggle with it just as much as a spirit does. i think it would take him a while to accept that cole is someone he can find understanding and companionship with, as opposed to simply seeing cole as an uncomfortable reflection of himself.

NO i hate this i hate it gkwjcjjsjd

1 - Ed x Stede: a slow burn or an arson fire?

BOTH. IT'S BOTH and that's what makes it so good. both Ed & Stede are immediately ride-or-die and smitten w each other. Both have their own issues standing in the way so they can't really do anything about it until the very last moment. We have a rare case of a romance where we get love at first sight AND the slow, gradual falling in love. Because they're both idiots <3

4 - What’s your favorite inanimate object?

Answered here! (It's the paperweight Stede uses to hit Badminton I over the head. Because it's a sperm whale. Goodbye.)

8 - What moment emotionally fucked you up the most?

When Ed came to the pier and Stede wasn't there :( Just. The immediate resignation; "Yeah that tracks why did I even think he'd come". The way he paces a bit, then lies down, then finally rows away, all with the same void expression. That was visceral, I have seen it so many times and it still gets me :((

14 -Favorite AU idea?