#queerhelp

I have never liked guys, ever. I thought i liked a guy once, i was actually being manipulated. Mightve liked him? Not sure, anyway oh and i also liked this on girl who was genderfluid then a girl then back to genderfluid but she is amab

So, case closed right? Im just a lesbian.

Curve ball, i meet this guy. He's trans, specifically a demiboy so technically he's nonbinary but i see him mostly as a boy. He's cute, and i keep getting thoughts like wanting to kiss him (what?) Or sniff him (i do indulge in that one alot, he smells good. Tbf thats usally because i spray him with my perfume, or its the soap he uses to style his hair.) Or be generally very cuddly, which i also do because i cuddle all my friends, but most of my friends arent interested in it so not that much. Maybe i feel like i like him because he's also equally as touchy thus we are hugging alot? We met fairly recently and have only hang out for maybe 1.5 to 2 weeks? I have a horrid perception of time so im not sure. But we have hung out almost every day because we live so dang close, and we are binging a tv show. Not gonna drop it because he will IMMEDIATELY recognise me, he is on tumblr too. I actually have him following my main blogs which is why im using my side blog.

If you see this and somehow know im talking about you? One, mind your business two you're cute, i might like you?

Anyway, if it turns out i do like him, which i doubt because i've gotten intrusive thoughts before (like tons, but the only time the thoughts turned to weird desires was that time i was being manipulated lmao) which oddly enough is why i have the ocd tag on tumblr blocked (long story)

Unrelated, anyway! If i do like him but im mostly a lesbian except this one exception and maybe a couple fictional guys?? Eh, complicated. Would i still be a lesbian, or some other label.

Biromantic lesbian? (Asexual) Some other thing? I dunno.

Its not a big deal, my main concern is if i like him (crushes are scary + not ready for a relationship + i also am friends with this one girl who is really pretty and i want her to like me)

But, i like labels because they help me explain myself without going on a long tangent about how im mostly a lesbian but there's this one guy i like

Or maybe i do intrinsically recognise him as nonbinary, i do keep forgetting he's not ace though so... questionable.. (Most of my friends are also ace so im used to it)

Anyway if i did, what would i be? Thanks