Went to the doctor's
I've been having joint pain, weakness and trouble staying up throughout the day lately. Doctors told me it could be arthritis, carpal tunnel, or even lupus. I got blood-work done, and they found out I'm deficient in :
Iron
Vitamin B12
Vitamin D
Calcium
I told my mother (who often accuses me of not eating enough/well) that I was put on supplements, and predictably enough, she said "Or you could just EAT." She treats me like I have an eating disorder... I know oftentimes I'm not hungry, or don't feel up to eating... but then every time I'm sick she blames it on me. Last night I threw up after dinner (I was feeling sick since Monday night - I believe it's food poisoning or a stomach flu) and she blamed it on the fact I had only ate a couple waffles for breakfast (/because/ I was sick in the first place). All the worse, my brother has started getting on my case too. Nauseated, tired and a little hungry, I asked him if he would make me some plain rice - figuring it'd be nice and gentle on my sour stomach. He yells at me that I need more nutrients than plain rice has. I ended up having chicken fried rice and a hot dog. I don't even know anymore. Maybe there is something wrong. I know I need to start exercising (I've gained a lot of weight recently), but my energy levels are so low as it is... I already suffer from irregular periods, and I'm on BC for that... I need to get an ultrasound to rule out the possibility of ovarian cysts soon. I just hope I start feeling better soon so I can make a positive change in my life. As it stands, I have to take five pills now daily. For now, I guess I'll just have this plate of spaghetti.











