#pxsthumus

My muse writes about yours. Perhaps the first time they met, or an event that was particularly important to our muses’ relationship.

January 18thToday we went out on one of the worst calls of my entire life. I like to think that I can handle junkies who are one track mark away from an overdoes and homeless addicts who try to steal supplies from the back of our ambulance when they think we’re not watching. When the victim turns out to be one of your oldest and closest friends, though? That’s a whole other story entirely. Heartbreaking doesn’t do it justice, honestly. Hardly being able to recognize the Ellie that I once knew was more than enough to rip my heart out of my chest barehanded.

Just thinking about it hours later makes me sick. What happened to her? She had so much life inside of her and the whole world in front of her. When did that light dim, and why wasn’t I paying enough attention to see it? Some might say it’s too late to bother doing anything about it now, but I say screw them. I want my best friend back, and she deserves to have her life back. It might be buried underneath a hell of a lot of pain and trauma, but Ellis Shepherd still has so much to offer this world.

Starting tomorrow morning, I’m going to do whatever it takes to get her the help she needs. If she hates me for it, oh well. As long as she’s safe, that’s all I care about. I’m not about to lose someone else that I care about if I don’t have to. I refuse.

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May 24thI snuck out of daycare for the very first time today. Okay, so maybe I kind of just followed Ellis Shepherd out the door, but I’ve never done anything like that before. I’ve always been too afraid of getting in trouble, but she does it like it’s no big deal. The funny part is that she’s only four. I don’t know how she talked me into it, but it was kinda fun. All we did was go down the hall and check the surgery board. We were gonna go to one of the galleries and watch a surgery that one of our mommies were doing, but we didn’t make it that far. Ellie thinks we’ll have better luck next time, but I don’t know if I wanna try it again. I still think my mommy’s gonna find out about this time, but she doubts it. After all, they’re always super busy with their surgeries anyway, and who would believe that I actually left? Someone should probably put a GPS or something on Ellie so they’ll always know where she is and when she’s trying to escape.

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Despite the fact that Delia is older, Ellis has pretty much always been the boss. Delia usually just ends up going along with what she says. In a way, she’s the Ethel to Ellis’ Lucy.

During their time at Grey Sloan, the two doctors can always be found sitting together at the same table during mealtimes. It never fails.

When each one was in med school, they always helped the other study. It didn’t matter if they were in completely different states and had to do it over Skype or something. Friends help friends, and they were going to support each other, no matter what.

Delia knows how much Ellis hates attending all of the big hospital galas, so a lot of the time she’ll act as her chaperone and try to keep her out of trouble. The key word being try.

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who said i love you first? amelia, since ellie was a baby & therefore couldn’t speak.

who laughs when the other trips? ellie thinks it’s hilarious, especially when she’s younger.

who pays the bills? well, since children don’t have disposable income... meredith, mostly. but amelia pays her share, too.

which one makes a bigger deal around the holidays? amelia makes a big deal for ellie, who’s mostly excited for presents.

who’s more clumsy? depends on the year. kids don’t exactly have great coordination, but then, neither does amelia when she’s not in surgery.

who checks their daily horoscope? neither, unless it’s for a laugh.

who sings louder in the car? they both sing in the car. very loudly. loudly enough that meredith refuses to drive with both at once.

who leaves the cap off the toothpaste? both. && only amelia get in trouble for it.

who is more up to date in pop culture? amelia, because ellie is a kid & doesn’t really know pop culture beyond disney & kids’ bands. this probably shifts a bit as she gets older.

who insists on going to see the newest movies? ellie begs amelia to take her to all the movies. although her aunt is very easily swayed by those puppy eyes, which she says isn’t fair since she practically invented the puppy eye.

who cries when the abused animal commercials come on? ellie. she’s always bringing home strays.

who’s the lighter sleeper? on average, amelia.

who believes in ghosts? when she’s younger, ellie.

who does the grocery shopping? amelia. she’s enough of a mess without her niece talking her into buying extra candy & instant cake mixes.

I DID ONLY BECAUSE IM WATCHING 3x1 AND DYING OK ILY