The first time you called me, I couldn't have been more nervous. It's that pounding in your chest you get when you know the drop on a roller coaster is just seconds ahead, and you get so excited and nervous and it seems your heart might jump out of your chest. Maybe that phone call was utterly random and about something dumb, but I just thought you were so cool. It's like how in kindergarten little kids will have crushes on their teachers and just think they're the most amazing people in the world. Except, I'm not a kindergartner and you're not a million years older then me, and some way some how, we work. You're the stubborn boy who feels so goddamn lost and can't seem  to make things work perfectly by yourself, who is so talented you can see the beauty in everything you do, good or bad. And I'm  the girl whose sometimes quiet but absolutely ridiculous behind closed doors, who can't seem to speak about herself because she thinks everything about her is wrong, maybe even a mistake. But some how, we fit together. When I got that first call, I didn't expect any of this. I had this helpless crush on you and I was just fascinated by you. Now, I know so many little things about you. I have your stuffed giraffe sitting by me in bed, and I know that you hum all the time because your grandpa used to all the time and you spent a lot of time with him. I know that you're absolutely more stunning every day, and that I love you more now then I ever could have that first time you called me. And your voice. Gosh, that voice. It's like listening to your favorite song for the very first time, you don't know it yet but someday that song will help you through tough times or make you incredibly happy and it will be the best noise in the world. You're my favorite song. Maybe this isn't going to last forever, maybe one day you won't ever think about me again. But, right now, in this moment, nothing else matters except, that while things may be difficult and unconventional, I know that I love the person I know you to be. And right now, I fully believe I always will.
