tw super big vent
ive been feeling like dr!nkng, doing d4vgz, es-hing my face nd b0de, cvt7!ng off all my hair, running away to an empty parking lot and get b@k3racted. idky its so specific but it is and idk how to describe it. ik its self destructive nd its incredibly harmful if i were to do so. i wouldnt even know what to tell my aunt like how to tell her that i want to do all of this JUST BECAUSE. like i dont wanna kayemes AT ALL i js want to do all of this its such a strong urge im so fucking BORED like i wanna get crossed, give myself a sick ash buzzcut, cool face $c4r, more $c4rs on the b0de, then get help bc thats not normal like ik how im feeling rn isnt normal at all plus id prob need med support actually no wait not a normal person wait ok this is all in itself z3lf-harp(m) thats why ok i need to figure out why im feeling like this whats making me feel like this ok chat time to do some personal self exploration
