#pumpkin bae

Went to a jack-o-lantern display tonight and found a wild babe!

Or “How I Love My Bae and Want Them to Be With Me Forever and Ever, Not Only 5 Months”

So, yesterday, @nymfay made a post to celebrate our fifth month dating anniversary, and as the easily sidetracked fool I am, I ended up not giving it the attention it deserved (and also didn’t give them the attention they deserved), but I’m ready to rectify that!

Now, I may not be the most eloquent person when it comes to expressing my feelings for others, specially romantically, because God knows I’m very stilted about it because my past relationships never really gave me a reason to be super affectionate, neither they were very strong on the "paying attention” department. But if learning how to express my feelings and being attentive will make Pin happier, then by God I am going to learn how to do that!!

With those things said, I am here to tell all of you how amazing and special Pin is to me, and how much good they do in my life. The fact I am actively seeking professional help for my anxiety and depression is all thanks to them and their encouraging words. They made me see that my life is worth living, and that I’m worth of being happy, and if I’m happy, then i can make them happy, which is like, the most important thing to me, I’m not even joking.

These past months have been really good to me, because without them I would have crumbled under all the pressure life’s putting on me lately. They give me strength to keep on trucking and to keep on fighting, despite what all the tiny voices in my head tell me.

And, where do i start when I need to talk abotu them? I dunno, really. They are amazing, in all aspects and I can’t see myself with anyone but them. I think about Pin like, almost all the time, and I’m always worried about them and I keep on thinking “Damn, i wish Pin was here with me” because I miss them constantly, and I just want them by my side, more than i ever wanted anyone.

They are wonderful, and make me feel so comfortable and loved and needed, and I really don’t want to betray all the trust they put in me, because they deserve only the best, and I’m doing what I can to give them that, even with my stilted, awkward feelings.

And they are just so gorgeous and patient and nice and just accepting of all my quirks and just, I dunno, it’s weird to find someone that understands me as well as they do, someone i can say anything to and they won’t judge me, and it’s just so refreshing and nice, and really, this is something I want, for years and years to come.

What I’m trying to say with all this is that I love Pin very much. Love them with every inch of my awkward heart, and ,more than anything, i want them to be happy, and I want them to know I think they are amazing, and beautiful and important, and that everything they do for me and tell me is significant and meaningful to me!