Work stress and life stress kept me awake last night.
That’s not entirely true. First it let me fall asleep early, but then it woke me for no good reason at midnight and refused to let me go back to sleep. I look and feel like a zombie today.
I am at a crossroads with S the ex. I’m wondering how J is doing (and angry at myself for caring!). And I have a patient who I’m very concerned is a threat to his ex-wife. It’s a lot right now. As someone who barely got pimples as a teenager, that I’ve suddenly woken up with a breakout is probably a sign of the stress I’m feeling.
The guy I job share with keeps trying to message me outside of work despite my repeatedly reinforcing to him that I don’t do work talk outside of work. When he does, I don’t respond. It’s always late at night and I suspect alcohol-fuelled. He lives with his partner and has family around, we also aren’t friends so I don’t have the bandwidth to be his emotional support. I’ve given him options of where to get help. He ignores them, comes to work in tears, and then goes home and tries to message me. It’s at the stage where I’m wondering if I need to say something to our director of training or his supervisor. I can’t be what he needs and he isn’t helping himself. He’s also starting to piss me off because he’s my age, tells everyone he has BPAD, and actively isn’t getting help for it which shows a complete lack of insight for a psych reg. He’s also making it so that we are all obligated to say something under duty of care.
So I’m whinging today.
I’m wearing a dress that I’m going to have self-doubt about all day, so that also isn’t helping my cause.
It’s just a rainy whiny day for me where I need more sleep. It’ll be fine. It just helps to go blah sometimes.













