#psy4

That’s not entirely true. First it let me fall asleep early, but then it woke me for no good reason at midnight and refused to let me go back to sleep. I look and feel like a zombie today.

I am at a crossroads with S the ex. I’m wondering how J is doing (and angry at myself for caring!). And I have a patient who I’m very concerned is a threat to his ex-wife. It’s a lot right now. As someone who barely got pimples as a teenager, that I’ve suddenly woken up with a breakout is probably a sign of the stress I’m feeling.

The guy I job share with keeps trying to message me outside of work despite my repeatedly reinforcing to him that I don’t do work talk outside of work. When he does, I don’t respond. It’s always late at night and I suspect alcohol-fuelled. He lives with his partner and has family around, we also aren’t friends so I don’t have the bandwidth to be his emotional support. I’ve given him options of where to get help. He ignores them, comes to work in tears, and then goes home and tries to message me. It’s at the stage where I’m wondering if I need to say something to our director of training or his supervisor. I can’t be what he needs and he isn’t helping himself. He’s also starting to piss me off because he’s my age, tells everyone he has BPAD, and actively isn’t getting help for it which shows a complete lack of insight for a psych reg. He’s also making it so that we are all obligated to say something under duty of care.

So I’m whinging today.

I’m wearing a dress that I’m going to have self-doubt about all day, so that also isn’t helping my cause.

It’s just a rainy whiny day for me where I need more sleep. It’ll be fine. It just helps to go blah sometimes.

"Why do I need to explain myself, this is International Police policy. If anything, Nanu should explain it since he's a senior UB agent and actually was involved in Stratos4-"

"What a hassle... I've got an explanation, but you're not gonna want to hear it. Don't say I didn't warn you."

"You see, Meowth aren't usually born with eyelashes-"

"I'm sorry to interrupt, but I would much rather explain things to my family for myself than have the police do it, especially someone as cryptic as Agent Üh."

"That's a pretty good point. Here Lillie- I'm giving you over to Mohn!"

"O-Okay-- wait, does my hair look alright?"

“Of course! I-I can hardly believe it... Father is really here, cheering on a Pokemon battle...? Even when we went into Ultra Space, and we didn’t see him there, I-I thought maybe he really is gone...”

“Well, even if we had gone exploring Ultra Space, we wouldn’t have found him there... he was in Alola before I even moved to Melemele, Lillie!”

“What?! Are you saying all of this could have been avoided-?!”

“Hey Elli, you wanna come explain yourself?”

“You’re insufferable, Moon. You don’t have to get her any more worked up than she is.”

“By my book, keeping him isolated from the family is still the police’s fault! The least you can do is apologize on their behalf!”

“I-I’ll apologize, if I can...”

“I don’t know the answer, but if I did know it, that’s still classified information.”

“Alola’s not got a lot of crime to be fighting. The UB units are the most active round here, though.”

Agent PSY4 crosses their arms. “... (Maybe I’m wasting too much of my time here. I won’t find him like this...)”

“Wouldn’t you like to know.”

“Yeah, we would! You know all about our lives! Screw the police codenames, we’re not gonna come after you or anything.”

“...alright. Fine. I'm Eldes, but I’d prefer to be called Elli or by my codename.”

(It worked!?) “Nice to meet you, Elli!”

“You’re getting soft, Agent PSY4.”

“Good question...” They look over at the crowd, starting up the musical act. “Are there more fights?”

“Yeah if you want! We can have as many battles as we want using the stage! How about it? I heard you beat Gladion, so I wanna see how strong you are, too!”

“-what NO, I get to fight Cipher first, Hau!”

“You can fight them anytime, you’re the Champion!”

“Sorry to disappoint, but I think I should focus on my job for tonight.”

"Poor Kartana... Guzma still has three Pokemon to Gladion's two. I'm starting to get worried..."

"Yeah, but it's Silvally! There's no way he'll lose with Silvally!"

"That's probably not enough when you couple in the webs and spikes on the field."

"We didn't ask you!"

(What can I do to help him? His Pokemon are doing their best...)

"Porygon! Wait for my command!"

Zzzzrrtt!

"Heh, alright Scizor, let's change it up-"

As the fight intensifies and Guzma’s bug Pokemon start to show off their powerful moves, Gladion sends out his Kartana! “Use Knock-Off!”

“Wait, against Pinsir? But it’s body is so frail...”

Kartana comes out into the X-Scissors, tearing into it before it flutters around to knock the Life Orb out from Pinsir’s teeth!

“Now finish it with X-Scissors!”

"Stand strong and counter with Knock-Off!”

“...! Kartana’s okay!”

“Actually, I’d say Gladion is at a disadvantage here as long as he keeps squandering opportunities. But it’s good he understood Kartana could be strong enough to withstand one more attack if he just weakened it enough.”

(The way trainers look at Pokemon is so objectionable to me, but I suppose they are seeing things about them I would never think to measure... like how much injury they can endure before collapsing...)

“But... isn’t the point of these battles supposed to be fun for everyone involved? Gladion doesn’t seem like he’s enjoying himself, but Guzma...”

“It could just be the circumstances, Mohn, you shouldn’t read into a single battle like that.”