#prue blake

I have not done anything socially. I know this is bad. That I would enjoy it once I get there. Except everything else is consuming the only energy I have to give.

I wish I was the sort of person that was able to catch up with a friend and simply do nothing together…Except most of the time, I only want to do exactly the ‘nothing’ that I am in the mood for and not a compromised ‘nothing’ we agree on that feels a lot like doing something. 

It takes me such a long time to not feel like I have to turn on and entertain a friend. Like I have to sparkle my way through every social occasion less I never be invited to one again. An endless of cycle that results in wanting to do nothing that I cannot break no matter how hard I try.