#prsnl2020

Praise God for we can trust in His promises. 💖💖💖💖

Cried again today & tonight but Lord, I'm lifting all my pain to you...

Sept 29, 2020

I was able to join 3 online break-out sessions.

First, nung 09/22/20 kung saan tinalakay yung pagiging O n T r a c k ! I hope next year magkaroon na ako ng chance na mag lead ng own d - g r o u p ko & magamit ko yung mga natutunan ko last tuesday.... I'm excited!!! But right now, I'm still praying that the Lord will help me to heal myself & guard these feelings for B first so I can serve Him with my whole heart..

Second, nung 09/25/20 kung saan ang topic nga namin ay O p e n c o m m u n i c a t i o n. Grabe! So many realizations. I know why our relationship had been broken into this state, it's because we lacked any heart to heart communication last year. :( If only I had talked to him & tell him what I truly felt, then he wouldn't stop loving me today. Until now, we couldn't open our hearts to each other and are afraid that this would be the end of it. But of course, the Lord has plans for the both of us. And I know, things had to happened this way for us to learn and be redirected. I'm still hoping that when the time is right, we will finally meet in the middle & be together with the blessings of the Lord.

Third, last night 09/26/2020 was truly a blessing! C r o s s r o a d! Wow! In our life, we will faced a time that would make us choose which path to take.

Should I go East? South? North? Or West?

And in deciding which course to take, we always need to ask for His guidance. Open the Bible & ask for His words to guide us in making our decision.

May we always choose the path that would lead us closer to God.

I, personally, had some decisions that I didn't considered what the Lord wanted me to do. I decided for myself & plan ahead of His timing. Hence, I was left dissapointed & hurt. And when I was hurt, I hurt the other people who love me.

This time, even if it's painful & hard, I will learn to wait on His timing. Afterall, our Lord is never too early nor late.

3:22 a.m.

Sept 27,2020

I know that all of these pains have a reason. It might hurt now, but the fruit of waiting is sweetest in the future. 💖💖💖💖

I decided to do my devotions on the morning rather than on the evening starting today and guess what? I feel refreshed all day.

Though there's still pain occassionally that appears randomly during the day, I can say that it's manageable compared to the last 3 months.

I c a, we're having progress. Keep saying Yes to God because those small Yeses of yours will lead you one step closer to His intended plans for you. 💖

Sept 11,2020

Nakaka-walang focus kapag may deadline ka pang hahabulin e. 😔 Goal na din para maaga ako matulog & magising . 💖💖💖