#propertyofprocessingheartbreak

I loved you so much.  I still love you so much.

I was reading through our old text messages, and I honestly don't know why you were with me for so long. I'm such a brat. I was so lucky to have you, and I thought you'd always be there, and I was wrong

Honestly, the thought of you with someone else, loving someone else, still hurts me.

Fall Out Boy said it best,  'thx 4 the mmrs

Do I miss you? Or do I miss the way you made me feel?

Even though you hurt me, I do want you to be happy. I want you to get everything you want in life. You're going to make a great dad. Your kids are going to be so lucky because I know how much you're going to love them.

Sometimes, I wonder if I'm just glosisng over all the bad parts and just remembering the best of you

I've gotten over the anger I felt from the pain you caused me. Now I'm just sad that we didn't work out. Sad that we aren't one of those happy couples I see. Sad that I can't hold your hand anymore. Sad that I'll never feel you kiss my forehead. Sad that I don't get to fall asleep next to you and wake up next to you. Sad. Just a lot of sad.