#progress track

🔸 S t ar t 🔸

Current weight: 69kilos

Legs: 55 cm

Hips: 103 cm

Arms: 35 cm

Waist: 79 cm

Goals ✨

Well, mostly I want a nice body. Not a sick one again, just a healthy one. I'd say I should weight probably around 45/50 kilos to be healthy. My first goal would be not being overweight anymore.

🔒 65 kilos

🔒 59 kilos (not overweight anymore)

🔒 55 kilos

🔒 50 kilos ( healthy)

🔒 48 kilos

I am on a constant path of self destruction. I am never happy with myself and whenever I start to turn things around, I instantly destroy any progress I’ve made. I listen to negaitve comments fed to me by my father and I let them control my thought process. I am the first to nit pick at all of my flaws and insecurites and the second that someone points them out when I’m trying to better myself I instantly shut down. That’s why I think that maybe if I publicly log my progress, both achievements and failures, I’ll feel guilty when I fall off track and start to destroy any positive progess I’ve made.

I’ve been put on different medications for depression and anxiety because the ones I had been taking before made me feel fuzzy. This current boost of positive feelings has me feeling motivated, alongside the random 33 pounds I lost, and the current vitalstim therapy I am doing for my bells pawlsy.