Toxic? You/Me=Us
You say hey you are toxic, I say you are toxic. You know what IS toxic is US! You are tired, tired of the fighting, tired of the accusations, tired. So am I. You are “quiet” for a couple of days and say that’s healing. I’ve been quiet since Oct. 28th and it’s finally proving a point. i want counseling. You don’t. I want to figure out how to better our relationship and you sit there and share publicly for your friends and family to hurt me. You want people in your corner, fine. They are yours. I am tired. I am tired of being shamed publicly. I am tired of being the bad guy. My whole existence I have been the bad guy. It has always been my fault. Well that is done. I am a parent. I am not wrong for wanting respect from my own parent. This isn’t parent/child anymore this is parent/adult:Adult parent/parent... This word child/ teen/ adolescent are not my titles any longer. I am a parent. That is my existence. You do not get to control my emotions any more. You may not want to talk about you pinning me by my throat when I was 17, but I do. You may not want to talk about trying to ruin my wedding, but I do. You may not want to talk about being the hurricane in my life, but I do. It’s not fair to me and my family that you treat me this way. I am no longer tied monetarily to you so you try to emotionally tie me. When that does not work you need to publicly call me out. I am tired. I AM QUIET. And there’s not much you can do about it. I love you though I am allowed to tell someone I love that they are not treating me correct. The ones I love listen and hear when I say that they are hurting me. Because the ones I love do not want to hurt me.
