#problems!

but uhhh i have insurance again and idk if it’s that or the weather or the fact that lately i have felt very, very lonely.. i am tired every day, my body hurts, i feel very isolated from people and a lot of my old anxieties are back full force

every small mistake i make feels insurmountable. i have to force myself to eat. i’m able to recognize some of my bad/intrusive thought patterns but others feel too true to disregard. 

try to make your peasants less drunk by introducing coffee

opps

now they are too woke tm. they have started to plan rebellion. stop this! FORBIDD COFFEE

wait now the peasants are too drunk again! problem! RETURN OF THE COFFEE

A girl I’ve had a crush on for a little while started texting me, asking if I’d want to come over cause she was home alone. Not the first time she’s asked, but this time it’s been implied that it wouldn’t just be hanging out. First time I told her no b/c I was tired. She started asking if I liked anyone in particular and confessed she's been thinking about me. And I admitted that I liked her. She asked if I was interested in a sleepover, which I told her no bc she has a previous relationship she’s still trying to fix. Fast forward a few days to my best friend telling me that she’s fucking with me. She told her ex that she’s trying to get back together with, who now thinks I’m trying to move in on her b/c she’s “vulnerable” and she told all our friends I said some shit to her. The only people that should know what I said to you are me and you. 

Dumb girl, this is why you have a hard time getting people to like and trust you. And now you haven’t just lost me as a friend, but 2 others as well.