Hey so I have a question which might seem kinda stupid, but I just wanna know if this is "problematic"/insensitive etc in any way.
I have a lot of intrusive thoughts, I overthink, I feel negative emotions. But instead of admitting that I am the one feeling the emotions and that it's normal to feel bad, I instead blame it on Brian.
Stuff is about to get crazy now so hold on to your horses or whatever; Brian is actually "me"
WOAH, THE GRAND REVEALL
No, actually it's a literal name I made up for my brain. (Haha get it? Brian like Brain? You can laugh now.) And it feels weird to talk about because Brian is a whole different entity than I am. It's like he's using my body, like he's a parasite. It's like he's "controlling" me at times, making me lash out, overreact, overthink, etc.
I found out that the term polymind exists and imidiately, I was like "omg that's so me!" But then I've seen so many people hate on it. I'm not claiming to be a system, I do not have DID nor OSDD and these are serious disorders that should be taken very seriously. But so many people think that polyminds are claiming to have those disorders somehow
But I feel like me and my negative emotions, intrusive thoughts and impulsive decisions aren't me, but Brian. I swear, I know how crazy and weird and attention seeking I seem right now but it's been like this for me for the last few years and in my head, I will always be me and Brian just being an unwanted guest.
Plese can someone tell me if this is seriously something problematic or if it makes Sence, I feel like I'm going nuts
