#prettyok

I may not be fully aware of where I am in life at every moment of every day,

So maybe I should try to rationalize that wild roller coaster ride of emotions I went through during my week long vacation.

For the longest time I was allowing my loneliness consume me and using my day to day life as distractions from the impending emotional collapse. Without going to work it finally happened and I spent a few days in bed just fuming. Blaming God, venting on here, trying to talk to friends.

But I got it out of my system. I found motivation. I started sleeping with my blinds open so the sun can wake me up. I bought a plant. I cleaned everything. I made small positive changes to my life that will eventually add up. I applied for readmission into my local university. I'm determined and I won't be alone in this as I have friends going back to school as well.

I think this is a big turning point in my life. I'm pretty happy now. Next semester I WILL take classes. My parents are kind enough to help pay for them as all. 

Updated Clockwork's cutiemark (also not fixed in the updated drawing, why must I procrastinate so?) This was also my first attempt at drawing something with the program SAI (despite still not having a tablet >.>) 

Does it look stupid? When you look at it, yes, yes it does. 

Am I proud of it? When I look at it, yes, yes I am. 

Am I going to make things this bad in the future? Most likely.