I find it exhausting to have the same conversation with someone on multiple occasions... I hate having to be the one to say something, if we're not in a romantic relationship I don't deem it to be necessary to voice everything I notice that does harm to you and your life without being asked.. but when it harms me I let it sit and observe how often it'll occur and one day just blow up. I've been trying to do better, trying to have a conversation. But if we're having the same conversation about the same thing and it's about how you harm me in some way I just feel frustrated and defeated. I am no one's punching bag, emotionally or physically and I'll be damned if I let someone treat me as such.. I leave for basic training in a few days and I'm going in with a mindset of perservierance, self motivation and self respect. If I only have my family and my boyfriend's support that will be all I need because at the end of the day I've only experienced the coming and going of friendships... I thought this one would last but I thought that many times before.... I guess that's my mini rant before so crash after a night of cleaning and preparing to move once again. I'm kinda excited but also kinda don't give a fuck anymore. So yeah lol wish me luck! I'm probably gonna die and cry and die again lol
