Jan 19, 2024
i don't know what i want atp
#i just need to divert my thoughts#the haha little girl who liked everything and didn't have a particular hobby is suffering#i know i can learn im you young i feel invincible im waisting my time and energy by not putting efforts#i want to go this professor to guide me but im so scared because people judge you#im so scared im waisting my potential#ive never been this mentally sound#i can't enjoy any media anymore because ive tried it all and it doesn't anchor me anymore#i need something bigger#something grant#practical experience#i want to become so fucking good at what my career that i become people's first choice#worst thing knowing is THAT I KNOW I HAVE THE POTENTIAL#i can do it the odds are always in my favor#and even if they aren't in this way ill turn them because ive gained enough confidence#i just don't know where to put it#and its driving me insane#i don't even want to be on this site anymore#i want to get so fucking busy i don't have time even for myself#i don't want time for anything else other than the two people i love and my chores#i need to go insane for academics#not like top scorer but like
