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“This and a bearded big fat fuqq of a man grilling me a steak for breakfast after he woke me up before the sun. just to split me in two like a piece of fire wood”

The video was just of a road trip timelapse but yeah.

Happy holidays queen <3

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this response is going to be nsfw, but here we go. also happy holidays (:

this is me telling myself i need to finish bound not questioned and get on with my life so pls excuse me:

WTF is wrong with you not picking up your typing hands to do some shit people have been waiting months for. get ur life together mami and write the fucking Lalo smut people want. do it. do it. now.

Oh wow sorry that was a little weird, back to reality. Maybe a little hard on myself who knows (,: I really do appreciate all the love I get on Lalo when i write him. I love a man old enough to be my dad js. Ignacio is nice looking don’t get me wrong but Lalo just fucks with my head in the nicest way possible.

Ps: pics of my pets in silly hats as a gift

i feel like such a slacker with my matty posts lately omfg. his glambot was absolutely him and you should check it out if you didn’t see it (,:

it’s been unreasonably hot for two weeks and the weather has suddenly dropped again so my sinuses are absolutely whacko!

we celebrated my birthday at work yesterday and it was super busy and fun with all the kiddos i take care of! i cried a bit at some of the comments parents left me and i’m going to blame it on my pregnancy hormones and not because i’m a cry baby. oh speaking of—i’m having a boy and he’s a little over half baked now at 21 weeks!

also your fucking pets are so fucking cute omgggg. I love the torture of hats and clothes on animals it’s so funny. i know they are always angry but i love it.

pitties are the best doggies! and tabby cats oahdhdhdhhd my heart will always go out to them. i love them so muchhhh.

also i hope yore doing well and thriving 🩷 always best wishes to you my friend (,: snuggle them cute lil hat babies for me!!

my pup pup went to the vet last week and he was miserable for like two days. he had to get his teeth cleaned so they put him under anesthesia and came home and cried for two days. he’s all better now though!

replying to the latest inbox that I had sent you and the reply that I got back:

my previous exams actually went well! I had gotten first class grades in all of them :D hopefully I get first class grades in the next three aswell 🙏 and I am enjoying my break, they gave me a month and a half off so I have been doing so much and so little as well, bit of both hehe :) my depression has actually not come back surprisingly during this break, I did think that having such a big break without a set routine would send me into an episode, but I only experienced very minor anxiety attacks that were handled well for once ❤️‍🩹

I'm very glad that you have also said that you are going to stop focusing on positive things in your life. it is very important to remember that we choose to be angry and frustrated at things or people, and often forget that we also have a choice when it comes to wanting to be happy. being happy or being positive does not rely on a certain factor. we do not need to wait for it to happen, we can just want it to happen.

I'm very happy for you for being able to get another car! also glad that nobody was hurt, thankfully!! I don't remember how long it's been since you replied to my inbox but I'm assuming that you are either off for winter break still or have just gotten back to work, the way I hope you enjoyed the Christmas break that you have had (so far of its ongoing). and congrats on winning your fiancé the grand prize, im sure he was very happy for that kind gesture of yours <3

I hope that you have been able to process the news that you are not exactly thrilled about in a healthy way. i am always here for you if anything 🫂

totally understand the whole writing brain being stuck but the idea brain just suddenly has so much energy, like I have so many drafts that I keep making but when it comes to actually writing it... yeah no.. 😭 one day we will get rid of writers curse and we will be able to write freely 🔮

I hope that what has been about two weeks of 2026 is already full of opportunity and joy for you. I hope everyone in your life is having a wonderful time, I hope that you are being treated well and with the love that you deserve, and just remember that 2026 is a year for good. it is a year for happiness. it is a year for ourselves to excel and move forward. it really is a new beginning 🩷

I feel like I sound cheesy but there's just something in this air that is making me feel very positive and motivational. and I will not apologize lol 😋

anyways I will go back to doing my assignments and hope to talk to you soon! you will probably hear from me when all three are submitted and I am finally free from the shackles of deadlines 🤞

p.s ur doggo is so cutesie look at his little face 🥹 in turn, here is few pictures of my six month old kitty! he is sleeping.. idk why he was sleeping like this

i think it’s been genuinely so long that you’ve finished everything you mentioned, so in all seriousness i hope everything went your way!

although i’m not in school my fiancè has decided to go back and try again. i’m super proud of him and he has his own finals coming up. so far he’s gotten good marks on everything ((: schooling can be ridiculously stressful for no reason other than existing to overwhelm people, so i am so glad you are both paving ways for something greater!

I’m so happy you mental health has been on the mend. it’s so good to hear of only minor episodes. i started some meds and i can say that they have definitely been helping me stay mostly clear of the mental ick.

it’s almost break time for me again, mardi gras! i don’t think i’ll be doing any big parades this year, probably just a small local one so my son can have fun. but he’s definitely enjoyed king cake. and i can’t blame him bc i have too. carnival season brings out some fun times and memories for sure.

and as for my physical health, i’ve come to terms with it—it only took me four months but here we are. happy and calm and definitely appreciating the meds not making me feel so overwhelmed and dreadful all the time. i suppose i can say it (,: i’m pregnant. which i know is totally a lot right now bc i am going to be working full time until my body decides to go into labor and my fiancé also working full time and doing night classes, but it’s just gonna have to work out. no going back now, and that’s okay. everyone in our families are excited so that’s a good thing, less stuff to worry about. i’m almost at 18 weeks so that’s exciting too (:

and writing omfg, i have been so low energy bc i’m pregnant and working. i am never as tired after i give birth even with getting up and down in the night, but pregnancy is another fucking beast istg. i’ve been passing out at like 8-8:30 every night. the thought of doing anything extra even for enjoyment is just too much.

but all is well and hopefully will continue to go well.

so your cat is fucking adorable. he looks like my mom’s cat when he was a baby and now he’s a freaking beast.

and yes my mom fussed him for sitting on her cutting boards.

i don’t think you understand how much that means to me 😭

i haven’t been as active as i want to lately and getting a sweet lil message about love for my icky horn dog faux uncle richie post made my night

and idk if you’re aware but more icky richie is in my drafts istg when my life wants to stay together i will finish writing it

smooches right back to you anon and extra bc it’s almost valentine’s day <<<<<<<3

to reply to my last inbox check in lol:

i hate everything about anxiety it sucks so bad and im always here for u 🫂

it's cold here too!! it usually is but its the typa cold that makes me hope for snow, we don't get it a lot but no harm in wishing

i hope u got that day off of work. if not, ima fight ur boss rn

winter motivation loss is so real i felt it so bad this season and i still am :( it sucks so much but i gen don't know how to get out of it aside from pushing through even when feeling so drained and brain-dead practically (i js dont wanna another depressive episode)

i STILL have to watch Frankenstein and all the other shows/movies that came out so far.. I'm so behind

i am actually off uni now!! got a huge break for the winter and when im not focused on my coursework exams im definitely gonna be online to read all the treats u feed my brain (goes to say that i have not read that mikey fic but i am ITCHING to and might tonight lolol)

okay, when i say i have rewritten this response like five different times 🫠 also none of this is probably proofread sorry.

first, i would like to start with that i hope your exams and all went well! i know schooling is exhausting and tedious, but you did it—another semester down and now you have a break! that is wonderful, a little time to relax before getting back into it! you are welcome any time to come and decompress on my page (: i completely understand how depression and anxiety can cripple you so i get the need to push through.

in my other responses i had previously drafted i was going through the list of bad shit that has suddenly happened to me, and i deleted all of it. it sounded yappy and negative and just not great. i was very angry and frustrated and tried and overworked—which to all of those things i definitely am. but instead of focusing on the clusterfuck of life that the universe or whatever you believe in decided to throw my way i’m going to quickly focus on some positive things.

i managed to easily get past my car insurance claim and sum all of that up after i totaled my car in an accident and now i’m driving a new (well used but it’s nicer than my other one honestly) car! no one got hurt luckily and i felt like an adult actually managing it after i cried for two days.

after this week i am off for winter break, so hopefully i can get back into writing gear. we are having our annual hanukkah/christmas pajama party at work tomorrow which is always fun. the parents (i work with kids) have already gotten me such nice gifts and it just seems so thoughtful that they think of gifting me something.

i also won my fiancé the grand prize at his own work’s christmas party! it was a totally random raffle and i won him an almost $700 smoker/grill!

i did get some other news that i’m not exactly thrilled about just because of my certain circumstances. i’ve been debating on sharing or not, but when the time comes i’ll definitely let you in on all the nitty gritty. just give me more time to process.

oh and finally—my writing brain hasn’t been wonderful, but my idea brain is flowing. if only the writing curse would leave me be i could actually post something or even just edit a video—WOOF! okay yeah wow that was a lot of yapping still.

i’m hoping next year brings some peace my way. the last few months have been kind of a lot and i’m hoping it settles in for the better. it’s hard to look on the bright side but i think we’ll make out handsomely if we find the little things in all this funk.

anyways, hopefully 2026 will bring opportunity and joy to us both, friend. feel free to check in anytime (: below is a pic of my dog to bring some giggles, don’t mind my son’s bathroom the picture was taken before i cleaned.