Extract.
I know you don't get this so its silly to even bother..i just miss you, like always. I'm deeply sad that we're strangers now. We have no claim to each other but i still only have romantic feelings for you. Perhaps they never go away - maybe they are just forgotten behind all the hurt and nasty actions. I want to call you but i know it'll be unwelcome and then i think, what would I say? Your softness towards me is gone. I'm always hoping for the "hi, how are you" but now it's always "what do you want?". I'm a fool for the remaining love I have for you - it masks the reality that we will never be better than this. But it doesn't mean I don't love you anymore or don't want to cuddle up on the couch with you. I wonder how you are feeling and how things are for you. I hope you are doing things that make you happy. I miss your voice and your silly jokes that make you laugh so hard. But that Nicholas never shows himself to me anymore. I wish we could have had that coffee and talked. It would have been so good to see you.
