💜💙💜💙Sometimes I am proud of myself. And then there are times I am so tired in all ways. I hate my job but I'm still there, I'm still lonely but I want to be left alone, I'm taking medication but at times it feels absolutely hopeless and it crushes me. I'm sometimes bothered by stupid shit. I want a different life but I don't feel I'm trying hard enough to get it. I want to please everyone without feeling so exhausted. Staying positive is so challenging when all you did was live your whole life negatively realistic. I want to be a successful and happy person. I really want to know who cares about me and who is just using me. Why is life so tiring? Why does mental illness exist? Why do good people suffer and terrible ones get good fortune? Who's really watching over us? Does anyone care? Am I important? Well here I am in the same place, and many same feelings, I cannot help but wonder why life is cruel as to take my best friend away from me. I can never understand this world. I don't want to. I'm tired. Of everything of every shitty feeling or mistreatment. Fuck it all 💜💙💜💙
