#post 79

Well... Jonathan and I were going to try to talk at school today, but I was late to school so... yeah. didn’t happen.

Anyhoo, I’ve decided to just go to sleep when I get home from school. that way time goes by faster, and I don’t have to worry about hunger pains from not eating all day. 

Oh! today is Brett’s Birthday! I was surprised to see him at school today. I thought he might just skip cause it’s his birthday... but I guess not.

Oh! on a different note, yesterday, when I was talking to Jonathan, we found out we have the same taste in music. we both like all the same bands. we really have so much in common.

oh! also, there’s this guy I met on noteflight and we became friends, giving each other advice on our music and such. yesterday he found me on twitter, and we talked like all night. he’s really nice and I'm looking forward to becoming better friends. 

anyhoo... so I told Fabiola. Yesterday. I told her like... everything. I told her about my depression, my cutting and how I got addicted to it, about my three suicide attempts. and how I'm now going to therapy. all that stuff. we talked about it all for a while. And you know what? it felt good. it felt great to finally talk to someone about it. someone I actually feel I can trust. it feels good to finally let someone into my world. I don’t have to hide things from her anymore. of course nobody else knows, it’s just her, but still... it’s someone. a good friend. it's really a relief to tell someone. 

Whatever it takes to break Gotta do it From the burning lake or the eastern gate You'll get through it

[Chorus 1:] Rattle that lock, lose those chains Rattle that lock, lose those chains Rattle that lock, lose those chains Rattle that lock...

Let's go do it Have it all our way Go back to where we blew it And lose our heads along the way

[Chorus 2:] So long sin, au revoir chaos If there's a heaven, it can wait So long sin, au revoir chaos If there's a heaven...

[Guitar solo]

Rattle that lock Rattle that lock, lose those chains Rattle that lock Rattle that lock, lose those chains

And all the other travellers Become phantoms to our eyes Furies and the revellers Fallen angels in disguise

[Chorus 3:] No discord, chance or rumour Is going to interrupt this place No discord, chance or rumour To interrupt this...

So let's get to it It's calling like a flame Through the darkness and the night The world suspended on a golden chain

[Chorus 3]

Rattle that lock Rattle that lock, lose those chains