May 22nd, 2014 - Wednesday
I stayed home yesterday. I woke up that morning feeling... I don’t even know. I just felt a sense of dread. Like I didn’t want to go to school. I didn’t want to face people. So many people... I literally begged my mom to stay home. And then I went into my room and cried for like an hour... And then I just started crying at different times throughout the day. I don’t know why. I just cried. A lot. And it was awful, but it felt good at the same time to release everything I’d been holding onto for weeks. since I couldn’t release it through cutting cause I lost my blade.Â
Oh! This guy that Fabiola knows, called Johnathan apparently has a crush on me... Fabiola said they were talking and he told her that he liked me. yesterday he sent me a friend request on facebook. he was at the chorus concert for bring the men on Tuesday. that’s how we met. and we talked a lot yesterday... Fabiola told me that he liked me...
anyhoo... he’s a junior. oh... anyways... he seems really nice and Fabiola says he is too.