#poshka

I miss my dog so much it hurts

I miss my dog so fucking much And I notice how much sadder I am without her It's crazy how much I suffer without her companionship Just even having her lay by my feet, sit by me on the floor, lick at my face (or try to lol) I can't believe how much I am affected by her absence (She's not dead btw, just separated from me for almost a year now) It really makes my heart ache thinking about how uncertain our reunion is. I don't know if I'll see her this year or in 2 years or what. It's so fucking awful and painful.

I wish I could appreciate waking up to snow without my stomach twisting up over how my dog is doing, how cold she must be, and how I’m not there to keep her warm. 

I love animals so much, and I try so hard to be kind and giving to animals first and foremost So it really breaks my heart that the one creature that depends on me the most, my precious bb dog, has to suffer and I can't help her. My mom got a new apartment NO PETS ALLOWED. And hey guess what WE HAVE A DOG. And now I have to leave my dog in this animal-hating country. She's not even living with my family, she's living in our gardener's back yard, and he has a history of MAKING OUR ANIMALS DISAPPEAR. So she's lost a bunch of weight, has fleas, is eating mystery food, drinking dirty water, and is sleeping in THE FUCKING SNOW all because my family are assholes, and my mom wanted to move to fucking Glendale, to be closer to HER school, and because she didn't like the FUCKING VIBE of the valley. I CANT DO SHIT AND IT BREAKS MY FUCKING HEART. SHES PROBABLY GONNA DIE SOON AND THERES NOTHING I CAN DO.

I miss my dog :( the vet told me she was fat lol