#poodlepop

Hey hun!I just answered your other question and gave some studying tips. Don't let your anxiety screw with what you need to do, but also don't push yourself too hard. I would consider talking to a doctor about your anxiety if you can get to see one. They may be able to prescribe something so that you can study without anxiety playing a leading role. Here is the link to the other post of yours:

http://mental-health-advice.org/post/119787669570/ive-been-terrified-of-doing-exams-since-i-was-9

–> angry. And whenever this happens, I get this idea that my Mum is not my biological mother and I think I’ve said that to her a few times. We are very close and I love her a lot, but it’s like a sixth sense that she’s not my biological mother, and that makes me upset. And I’m finding myself hating my parents a lot these days too even though they are really, really good to me- which makes me feel worse ‘Cause I’m being ungrateful. I don’t see any hope for my life or future. And I feel so unfulfilled with life too. I'm 19 and so far there's not a single thing I've accomplished or given back to the world. I have everything in a golden platter and there are people out there who has it so much harder than I do but doing so much more and giving back as much, as well. People accomplish great things and I was stupid enough to think that I'm actually special enough to get into a good Uni and idk. I keep wishing I'd get hit by a truck or smth. -poodlepop

Hey hun!

Exams can be very scary. As a person who is almost done university I can totally sympathize with this. There are things that you can do to prepare for them so that they don’t seem so daunting. Study. Even if you don’t want to study. If you know the course material then you will do well and you will get instant relief when you see that first question on the test and you know it. Sometimes I even look up quizzes on the internet for that subject so it’s fun, more easy going, and I find that I remember it a lot better when I get an answer wrong. People put so much pressure on students to do well and that’s probably where the anxiety comes from. You are the one putting the most pressure on you though. You know that you have to do well because our system judges you based on standardized testing. Study little bits at a time it will make the task seem much smaller. Reward yourself with something when you have done enough studying whether that be a show or candy etc. Something that makes you happy and relaxed. You will do well if you put the effort in. Nothing in this life is easy but you and only you can make it less of a stress on yourself.

As for the mother thing and thinking she may not have given birth to you, it sounds to me like possible dissociation. I can’t diagnose that, only a doctor can. With dissociation you think things that aren’t real. BUT even if she didn’t give birth to you she is still your mom. She raised you. She loves you. She supports you. Do not let that get in the way of your relationship. I know people who are closer to people who are not their mom than their actual mom. Be grateful you have loving parents and leave it at that because a lot of people don’t have that. Skype or FaceTime with them if you are feeling lonely, I bet they miss you too.