#polyshorts

I stood and stared at myself in the mirror. I was in my usual work uniform, red collard shirt, khaki pants and black shoes with my hair in a bun. “This is it”, I thought. “This is what my life has come down to.” 

A year ago I would have never thought my life would be this way. A year ago I could see myself getting married and starting a family. A year ago I wanted to fulfill my dreams of becoming a travel journalist. But a year ago I’ve been through hell. A year a go I lived with my mother, Sam, and had a boyfriend, Sean, of two and a half years. Even though I felt like something was missing, my life was pretty much borderline perfect. Things began to go south when I found Sean with another woman at a restaurant. And even though he shattered my heart into a million pieces, I still loved him. I was depressed for a few weeks but my mother only made it worst.

 When Sam began to date a man named Harvey all of her sympathy for me disappeared. Trying hard to impress her new man, she wanted me to be perfect or at least make it seem like I was. After bumping heads for some time she ended up kicking me out and I ended up living with my aunt. My aunt, or Aunt J has a son of her own but since he lives with his dad she gets a little lonely…probably why she let me stay with her. I don’t talk to Sam much anymore, or any family besides my aunt and I haven’t heard from Sean in months. Last I heard he was still with that girl I caught him with and I admit, I do check his Facebook from time to time. I had to make a fake page because he blocked my personal one. Seeing pictures of him and his girlfriend breaks me but I can’t help it.

With all of the drama that was going on in my life I decided to take a semester off from school so I can save money, get myself together, and maybe even get my own place. Well, a semester turned into a whole year and I still have not gone back. The job I have now working at a store isn’t paying much and I haven’t had much motivation to go back. Being stuck at this point of my life at twenty one isn’t what I imagined for myself.

Lana- a 21 y.o. woman who feels stuck in life and wishes for more than just the life she is living

Ace- 24 y.o. man who owns his own business with his best friend Sid and deals with taking care and keeping his family (his father Henry and little brother Julian) afloat and out of trouble