#polycistronic

What is troubling you at the moment?

Lots of things - my grades, how slow I read/I have been studying (I can spend hours on like 5 pages orz)…this semester really. I have at least one quiz and one exam every week, so that’s always making me stressed haha. Also, I don’t know why I’m not seeing lipid droplets in my fruit fly larvae when I should be, too (this is for my research). Outside of school, I wonder if I’m being misunderstood, and if I’ve done something wrong when I don’t think I have or when I don’t realize it.

I am also very, very troubled about whether I should get a colonoscopy at this age, how much it’ll cost me, and the chances of me getting a perforation in the process.

What are you afraid of?

I’m afraid of losing more of my friends and family members to death, and getting metastatic cancer. And maybe a CNS disease because of my insomnia?? I swear my insomnia will cause some sort of CNS disorder for me because it can get so intense and drive my brain nuts lol

I’m also afraid of the last line of the previous question, and very much so at that.

What do you dream about at night?

If this question is asking about my dreams while I’m asleep, I have to say that it varies a LOT. Most of the time it’s about me running away from something, which may or may not be threatening me. Or I’m just roaming around and see certain people doing some stuff. Lots of random little things 90% of the time.

If the question is asking me what I think of before I fall asleep, I’m typically thinking about the story I’m working on for fun. I’m probably too absorbed in it to call it something I’m doing “for fun” hahaha - it’s likely something I’m holding very close to my heart as a long term project. But I think of more headcanons for my characters, whether I should add more characters, what personalities (and powers, in this case) they will have, what I should add or remove from the plotline, what side plots to have, and if the thing I’m changing requires me to revamp the entire story.

In addition, there’s a lot of world building and designing that I will have to do. I have some designs down, but the rest of it I only have an idea of and I don’t know if they’re good. orz This is the biggest thing that’s holding me back from drawing out my story. @_@

Oh and on top of that, I’m still coming up with character designs and multiple outfits for each character. And a title lolololol