Mistakes - Part 2
Mistakes - Part 1
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Thomas never asks you how you’re doing. He never asks if you’re feeling better, or if you’ve gotten over your boyfriends. Thomas doesn’t bother to ask because he knows the answers already. Your brother knows that everything is exactly how it was the day you arrived at his door even though it’s been two weeks.
Unfortunately, Thomas isn’t the only person around you, and your other friends start to notice your sudden absence from the boys’ lives.
“Y/N, you can’t just ignore the problem” Peggy leans forward, her distinctive yellow top making her stand out among her sisters. “All five of you are miserable. John said that he tried to visit you at work the other day because you aren’t answering any of their calls, but Washington says that you’ve been working remotely from Jefferson’s apartment!”
You let out a soft sigh, glancing at the other two Schuyler sisters to see if either of them are on your side, no such luck. “Alex works at the same place I do, John works at the marine aquarium only a block north, and both Hercules and Lafayette work only two blocks south of the office. Why the hell would I go to work when all four of my ex’s are in the vicinity? I still love them, Pegs! And I thought they loved me, or were at least close to it! If I talk to them I’ll break down and I’d rather not do that while I’m at work”
Eliza lets out a soft sigh, one of her small hands reaching out to rest on yours, “Of course they love you. Alex has always been one to say stupid stuff without thinking, you know that. He’s kind of an asshole, he was even like that in high-school when I dated him for a little while, and he hasn’t changed in all these years.”
The oldest Schuyler sister nods along with Eliza, “When Alexander’s angry he’ll say whatever will hurt the most. He’s awful about confronting his feelings, so instead he hurts everyone around him. Alex thinks that if he pushes everyone he loves away it means he is less likely to get hurt.”
Letting out a soft breath, you nod and take another sip of your tea, “Yeah, I guess you’re right. It still sucks. I just don’t know if I can have my position in our relationship used as a weapon like that, it makes me question the past 10 months of my life with them. What if Alex isn’t the only one who regrets me being a part of the relationship?”
“They don’t! I promise that none of them do! Y/N, listen to me, Lafayette has been inconsolable ever since you left, Hercules has been angry, giving both John and Alex the cold shoulder, John has been beating himself up, and Alex is either working himself into an early grave or trying to find a way to contact you.” Peggy’s eyes bore into yours, “You need to talk to them. It’s not good for any of you to leave things like this, even if you guys decide to end things permanently at least everything will be out in the open.”
“I guess you’re right. I can’t exactly avoid work forever either, I don’t think George’ll survive much longer without me there. I’ve already gotten a bunch of emails from him about clients, and having to deal with Jefferson, and even him asking where the coffee is” You pull out your phone, “You think it’s too chicken to just text Laf to set up a meeting?”
Angelica raises her eyebrow, “You’re going to text Lafayette, the man who has been inconsolable ever since you left the way you did? The least that man deserves is a phone call. He and Herc didn’t do anything and you’ve been ignoring them, the only ones who you should be mad as are Alex and John, not Lafayette and Hercules”
“I hate to say this, but Angelica’s right” Eliza’s eyes flick away from yours, “Laf loves so deeply and he hurts so much when someone he loves is in pain, and now everyone that he loves is in pain and there’s no way for him to fix it because you’re avoiding all of them.”
“I know, I didn’t realize how much I was hurting all of them. When I get back to Tommy’s I’ll call one of them, I’ll set up a meeting and … and we’ll figure everything out.”
All three of the girls nod and flash bright smiles, “Good, you’ll have to let us know how it goes. All of you are still our friends and even if you guys split you’re still our friend.”
“I know, and I will. We’ll have a girls-night and I’ll tell you everything that happens, okay?”
“Sounds like a plan” Angelica finishes her coffee, “Well, we’re going to head out so you can get back to Thomas’. You have a phone call to make.”
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Staring down at your phone you try to decide who it would be best to reach out to. Alexander is out of the question, if he was angry before he’ll be furious now and would probably refuse to meet with you on principle. John was probably the same, he and Alex almost always agreed with each other so if Alex refused to meet with you John would too. Especially if they had made up. Lafayette had always acted as the mediator between everyone, he’s the one who makes sure everyone gets along, but Eliza said that Laf wasn’t taking the separation well, so he might be too emotional. That left Hercules, he was always willing to listen and he hadn’t even been present for the fight, it seemed like he was the best choice.
The phone only rings three times before it’s picked up, “Y/N” Hercules’ deep voice breathes down the phone, “Are you alright? How have you been? We haven’t heard from you in weeks, sweetheart! We’ve been so worried!”
You let out a breathless chuckle, not expecting concern to be the first thing out of his mouth, “I’m alright, Herc, a little sick but the flu was going around the office before I started working from home, so I’m not worried. I-I’ve been staying with Tommy, we’ve been taking care of each other. I’m sorry that I’ve been avoiding everyone, I needed some time to digest everything that was said.”
“I know, sweetie, you don’t even know how pissed I was what I found out what happened. You don’t deserve to be treated like that, and Alex always seems to say things when he’s mad that hurt the people he’s closest to.”
“I know” You take a steadying breath, “I’d like to meet with everyone. I don’t want things to end the way they did. If Alexander meant what he said and really doesn’t want me in the relationship anymore I’ll respect that, but we need to talk about this. I was wondering if I could come to the apartment …”
“Yes!” If Hercules was standing in front of you he would have wrapped you in a hug, you can tell by the sound of his voice, “I’m so glad you want to talk things out, God, I’ve been so nervous that you wouldn’t ever want to talk to us again. I’ll set up a date for everyone, make sure that they know we’ll be talking everything out and then I’ll text you, okay?”
“That sounds good, Herc. Thank you” The two of you lapse into a brief moment of silence before you stare speaking again, “How is everyone? How are you doing?”
“It’s been tough without you here, sweetheart, I’ll admit it. Alex is working more than ever, Washington says that he is almost constantly hovering around your desk, waiting for you to go back. John’s quiet … he doesn’t seem depressed, but he’s not his usually happy self, he hasn’t touched his art supplies since you left. And Laf, well … Laf cries a lot. He hasn’t taken you being gone very well, and he’s been cold towards both Alex and John. He’s upset that you haven’t come back, but at the same time he doesn’t want to reach out, he wants to give you time.” Hercules lets out a soft sigh, “I’m doing alright. I’m trying to keep everyone together and be the shoulders that everyone can lean on”
You run trembling fingers through your hair, “I’m so sorry, Herc. I didn’t mean to make everything such a mess. We’ll make it better, I promise. Even if I’m not your girlfriend anymore I’d like to stay your friend, no matter what we’ll be there for each other, okay?”
“Okay, Y/N. You had better remember that when you come over, you were my friend first, so you have to stay my friend if the others want to end things romantically.” Herc lets out an empty chuckle, “We’ll just have to see”
“Everything will be fine, Herc, you’ll see. You’ll see.”
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Hercules texts you the next day to tell you when the meet-up will be. Apparently, everyone will be at the apartment this coming Friday, and they all agreed that they can’t leave things the way they are. Even Alex agreed to be civil and try to listen to all sides of the story.
“Tommy, I’m not gonna home for dinner tonight, why don’t you go out with James? I know you haven’t been going out because of me”
Your brother lifts his head up from the couch pillows to stare at you, “Where are you going? You’ve barely left the house since … that night”
“I’m actually going to meet with the guys. I talked with Hercules, and the two of us set up a meeting. We decided that it wasn’t good to leave things as they were, and even if they don’t want me to be part of the relationship anymore we need to clear the air”
Thomas groans and sits up, his dark eyes meeting your own, “Do you want me to come with you?”
You reach out and pat his hand, “No, this is something between the five of us and I want to keep it that way”
“Fine, but you tell Hamilton that if he hurts you anymore I’ll kick his ass. And don’t give me that look, it’s my job to protect you as your big brother. We’ve been protecting each other out whole lives, and I won’t let them hurt you anymore” Thomas’ hands clench into fists, “We aren’t children anymore, Y/N, we aren’t forced into silence by our parents, forced to take the beatings and berating’s. I’d do anything for you, you know?”
You quickly stand up and sit next to Thomas, pulling his taller frame into a crushing hug, “I know, Tommy, I know. I’d do anything for you too, you know that, right?” Thomas nods against your shoulder, “Good, now, call James and go out. I know you want to visit that new club that just opened, maybe he’ll go with you”
“Yeah, maybe. A night of drinking and dancing sounds good right now”
“Good, text me the address of the place so I’ll know where to come get you after my ‘meeting’ with the guys”
Thomas grins and presses a kiss to your forehead, “Alright, I will.”
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No matter how many layers you pile on as soon as you walk out of Thomas’ apartment building the New York winter wind pierces through them all.
“Why did I ever move up here? It’s too damn cold for this”
You quickly make your way down to the subway, with as much ice that’s on the road it’ll be safer to take that than to try for a taxi. There’s been nothing but car accidents on the news for the past few days, it doesn’t matter how much salt they put on the roads the ice seems to stay.
Lafayette’s ringtone blares out of your pocket causing several people to glare at you, but you pay them no mind any swipe to answer, “Hello?”
“Mon chéri! I have missed the sound of you!”
“I’ve missed your voice too Laf” You step onto the train and quickly find a seat, “What’s up? I’m on the subway so I’ll probably lose reception soon”
“I wanted to make sure you were still coming. I have been worried that you would, how you say, stand us up” Lafayette lets out a soft chuckle.
“I won’t, I’m on my way now. I’ll text you when I get off at the stop near the apartment, okay? Then it’ll be a fifteen-minute walk and I’ll be there.”
Several voices raise in the background, “Good, I will wait for your text then, mon chéri”
“Alright, Laf. Goodbye”
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‘Just got off the train, omw to the appt. ETA 15 minutes’ You send the message to both Thomas and Lafayette before tucking your phone away and trying to navigate the slippery sidewalk without falling.
The entire walk is blissfully uneventful until you get within sight of the apartment. A large hand grabs you by the back of your jacket and yanks you into the alley that you are passing.
“Hey! What the -” The knife at your throat makes any more words freeze. The man in front of you nervously glances at the mouth of the alleyway, waiting to see if anyone heard your shout before he turns his attention back to you.
“Listen lady, I don’t want to hurt you” The knife pulls away from your throat, but when you glance down you notice that the man has a gun in his other hand that that it’s aimed at your chest. “Just give me all your money and no one has to get hurt”
You nod, “Alright, like you said, no one needs to get hurt. My wallet’s in my coat pocket, I’m gonna get it, okay?”
“Yeah, yeah, just hurry up” The guys keeps his eyes on your hand as you reach into your pocket and pull out your wallet, pulling out any cash you have. “This all you got? Shit, fine. You got some nice looking jewelry, gimme that too. And your coat”
Nodding again you pull off your bracelets, rings, and the necklace that Lafayette had given you at your sixth month anniversary. The man snatches the jewelry from your hands, and you slide off the thick outer coat. “There. You have everything. Can I go now?”
The man opens his mouth, his fingers tightening on the gun, “You won’t say anything about this, lady. You look rich enough, you can replace this, and no one got hurt.”
You nod quickly, not daring to say a word. He looks like he’s about to let you go when Lafayette’s ringtone starts blaring from your coat pocket again. Several things happen at once, the man lets out a shout, drops the coat on the ground, and his finger squeezes on the trigger.
It takes several seconds for you to feel the pain of the bullet entering your abdomen. “Shit! Shit, I didn’t mean to shoot you! I didn’t mean to, I swear!”
Quickly pressing a hand to the gushing wound you slowly slide down the alley wall, “W-w …”
“It’s your fault! Your phone startled me! I wasn’t gonna hurt you!” The man shoves the money and jewelry into his pockets before he throws the coat back over top of you, hiding you from view. “Damn you, lady, no was supposed to get hurt!” With one last scornful look the man sprints to the mouth of the alleyway and is gone, leaving you alone and injured in the filth.
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