#pnwwriter

Find a reason to place yourself among something greater than your perception.

Face something fierce and embrace its power.

Feel something you’ve never felt and accept it; own it for what it is.

Free yourself from direction and let fate take reign.

Today I will be braver than I know , I will seek wisdom within myself and find ways to reflect it on those around me.

I will settle for the unknown, take a break from the search for answers and allow myself to rest in the present.

Today I will love myself for the wholeness I seek and the broken I can be at times.

I will seek shelter in myself and find comfort in what I know is true.

In one of my darker moments more recently, I found myself attracted to the idea of being lost.

It wasn’t that I wanted to be alone, or afraid, or even confused on how I got to where I was. I wanted to be lost in my thoughts, away from the noise of society, distant from my reality.

Like many, I thrive off the concept of having a journey. I try to remind myself that it isn’t just about the finish line, or the trophy, but the path you took to get there.

We spend a lot of time “lost” in our daily grind. This is where we continue our routines without much thought, we roll with the motions, and before we know it, our day is over, and off to sleep we go just to wake up and do it all again.

I have a problem with this. I do not want to float through my days without reflection or purpose, I want to acknowledge my days playing a vital role in my journey.

Although most of us must continue these normal daily routines in order to survive financially, it doesn’t mean that we can’t take a moment to ourselves to hear our thoughts, acknowledge reflections, and just feel.

This is where I became so infatuated with being lost, and what that really meant to me.

For me, finding myself surrounded by trees, feeling the warmth of the sun kiss my skin, and breathing in the air of the forest felt like weights lifted off my shoulders. In these moments, I felt as though my mind, so full of thoughts, and emotions, could unravel beautifully, leaving me feeling empty of stress, and full of gratitude and inner-peace.

Allowing myself to just for a moment feel lost within nature, has helped my soul feel reconnected and relieved from constantly feeling chained to my routines.

I recently shared with a friend that I felt like a wildflower trapped in a garden bed. This isn’t to say that I don’t find purpose and comfort in the structure of my days, but simply that I yearn for more.

It is important for us as individuals to not only seek our journey, but to truly connect with ourselves in moments away from chaos. If we can find time to hear our thoughts, and feel our emotions through soulful experiences, we not only learn how to love ourselves, but love our journey.

I feel that I am living in the eye of the storm

The sun blankets my body as if the air and me are simply one

There’s a story playing in my mind, a memory or you

Time has frozen yet I continue to exist and remain as if the dust has not settled around me, as if the havoc of loss has not shown up and let itself in

There’s silence and yet the noise of it all seems so loud and so far away

I question this reality as if it were a dream

The silence of soft falling snow was the only silence that truly ever kept quiet.

It was transcendent beauty

Life was a wave carrying her vessel

It felt the rhythm of a peaceful madness that coexisted in harmony

The depths of the sea could be felt in her soul releasing the pressure she felt to make sense of it all

We were magic

There was sadness painted on our skin that sunshine turned to art

We were poetry

There was silence and laughter writing our story and we screamed it from the mountain tops

We were wildflowers

There was roots that kept us thriving through havoc and we bloomed fierce

We were sunsets

There was goodbye and stars that never left the sky

We were kindred

There was fragments of our existence embedded in our being