#plus size problems

i've been suffering for months with stomachaches so strong i'm actually scared to eat anything other than plain bread and rice ON TOP of my extremely painful period pains that have been going on for years now.

i changed gynos and doctors so many times because often their answer was just to "lose weight and be more active" (mind you i'm slightly above average, just to say that i'm far from the point where the fat could actually impact my health). while sure, being active surely helps to live a long healthy life, i'm in pain. almost constantly. how could you think i'd be able to be more active if i'm in pain?? so, yeah. i never recived proper treatment.

long story short in these few months i lost a lot of weight due to plain not eating because my fucking stomach reject pretty much anything that has a smidge of flavour on it. everyone keeps telling me how good i look, how proud of me they are, how i look "healthier" when my health has never been lower.

There is nothing in this world that I despise more than buying pants as a plus size person. And as a person who gets re-traumatised by the return of low-waist loose leg/ balloon leg pants. Just give me some high-waisted jeans with at least a normal to tight leg if it isn’t skinny.

Let me set the record straight, Eddie Munson is a slight man, (sinewy as Joseph Quinn put it once since he had to lose 25 pounds for the role) any person larger than XL would not fit into his shirt without it being tight.

I want to see more representation for chars (any gender) who have tummy’s that don’t fit ✨cutely✨ into their s/os clothes. To really see them struggle with body issues especially because their partner is so conventionally attractive simply by being thinner.

Okay so recently I found out in the book Fire and Blood that Helaena is described as Plus size. And that was so upsetting to find out. As a plus size woman I kinda took that personally. It was like ooh here's this awesome character we love her except instead of being played by a bigger actress we want her to be played by the smaller prettier one. Idk if this bugs anyone else but. Like Rhaenyra shouldn't even be that skinny either. She's had several kids. It's not realistic. What did she fly to bravoos on syraxs and get some work done?

I can never Decide what vibe I want to give off because I constantly get so many ideas for different looks and I try different styles all the time but in the end I always want to look like this and give off these vibes combined to one

But then I remember a broke art student and plus that I’m plus-size so clothes are impossible to find cuz like Vivienne Westwood, I would dream to wear her clothes… her largest size 48 is like 88cm in the waist…. the normal for a size 48 is around 100cm… 🤠 so in the end I just buy cute but basic H&M clothing… cuz I know this is always how I want to look but it’s hard

I’m all for body positive. But it’s a lot easier when you’re being positive about someone else’s body.

Being a teenager in the early 2000s really fucked me up.