#plural venting

Im so sorry you're going through that.

Have you gotten a chance to talk to them about it and ask why? I honestly recommend locking them from front or only giving them supervised fronting time if that's something you're capable of, at least until things are more settled down possibly?

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I'm so happy for you! And proud, you came clean! Goodjob, that seems like it took a lot of bravery from you!

I admit. Realizing we were plural was a net positive in many aspects- it made us a lot less suicidal, it felt freeing to live plural instead of longing from the sidelines, it's NICE to be plural. It's just that it makes things like dementia, cancer, etc. that much more scary to us because it means ALL of us dying. Losing all this internal history and this internal world we've built and fought for, losing ourselves, being gone.

We don't want to die. Being plural was the first time we could say that without the feeling of wanting to not live this life offsetting it. Because it means there's too much to lose to just die here, to stop in hell. But it also means we ARE a little afraid of dying now.

i have a lot of plural friends and i care about them obviously but sometimes i just feel so alone. there have been incidents where my friends have said "this sounds vaguely like plurality" but nothing ever comes of it and its so. ughhhh

i just . i wish there was anyone who could understand my life. i wish i wasn't alone. it feels so hopeless

i hope this is ok. i'm sorry

Of course this is okay! Anyone can post here, it's just mainly for plurals of any kind, but singlets are also allowed to vent here.

Hmm, I understand feeling lonely, having sys-mates is a deeply intimate experience, and you'll never find yourself truly alone.

I believe, if you truly would be happier plural, or with head mates, you should look into willowing and see if that's something you'd be comfortable with!

We personally have no experience with creating head mates, but we have heard stories of people creating / willowing head mates and ending up feeling happier in their life after. This is a deeply personal thing so I recommend doing your research and really thinking about it, but it might be helpful to you!

Tho, I'm sure there's someone out there who understands you, feeling hopeless is normal, but I promise you everything will be okay.

but she has already called our host “delusional” for being trans so we are very scared . she is a transphobic homophobic trump supporter but she is at least not ableist towards us and we’re trying to hold onto that hope

the most we can do is hint to our symptoms (like telling her “i woke up very confused”, “i did something i don’t remember doing”, etc) but we still don’t even know how to begin talking about her with plurality. she works in the medical field so we are just hoping she’ll question us about it more someday

we have also been trying to get her to take us for a bpd and npd diagnosis but that’s a whole other thing

(Plural / & You)

Please be safe first okay? I'm not sure how old you are, and I know you need support but please try and be careful, if telling her could put you at risk try and keep your safety in mind first, I'm not trying to discourage you but just be safe, okay?

I really hope your guys mother will be accepting, and I'm really hoping she changes her view and becomes more supportive on everything towards y'all.

Oh no, I'm sorry that's happening 🫂

[pt: i have memories i don't think a kid-minded syskid should have formed with]