EMIZEL RANT BELOW (shouting into a void incoherently)
ANYONE OUT THERE EVER WHO WANTS TO TALK ABOUT HOW PRETTY MUCH 4 OF EMIZEL'S 5 DEATHS (POST-EMBRACE) WERE SELF INFLICTED AND HOW CONDI SAYS IN EPISODE 11 BLOODBOUND THAT ITS REALLY EASY FOR EMIZEL TO KILL HIMSELF???
IN ADDITION WOULD ANYONE LIKE TO TALK ABOUT HOW HE FEELS SO POWERLESS. ANYONE. HOW HIS UPBRINGING SHAPED THAT MINDSET AND HOW ITS MAKES SO MUCH SENSE FOR HIM TO TRY TO CLING TO ANY SENSE OF POWER HE FINDS WHICH IS WHY HE SEES VAMPIRISM AS A TOOL AND OPPORTUNITY AT FIRST. ANYONE ELSE WHO NOTICED THAT IN THE MIDNIGHT CIRCLE HE IS GENUINELY SO AFFECTED BY WHATS BEEN HAUNTING HIM THIS WHOLE CAMPAIGN BEING HIS INFERIORITY TO ARTHUR AND SHILO?????????? "WHY WAS SHILO BORN A VAMPIRE AND NOT ME?" AND HIS QUESTION AT THE UNSEEN ONE TOO BEING THE SAME THING BASICALLY THAT HE DIDN'T GIVE UP ON BECAUSE IT NEVER STOPPED BEING ON HIS MIND. WHY CAN'T I HAVE THE POWER SHILO DOES?? WHY DID I NOT HAVE MAGIC POWERS?? WHY WAS I FATED TO BE NOTHING IF NOT FOR GABRIEL??? WHY DID I NEED TO DEAL WITH MY DAD NOT SHILO?? WHAT MADE ME UNWORTHY OF THAT LIFE!! BECAUSE EVEN IF WE KNOW SHILO'S LIFE IN THE CASTLE WAS PRETTY MISERABLE THOUGH SAFE, EMIZEL OBVIOUSLY VIEWS SHILO'S POSITION AS ONE OF POWER, EVEN IF HE DOESN'T RESPECT IT (BECAUSE OFC HE DOESN'T HE'S EMIZEL. TRYING TO TAKE CONTROL.)
I LOVE CHARACTERS SO DESPERATE FOR CONTROL BECAUSE THEYVVE ALWAYS LACKED IT. I LOVE CHARACTERS VIEWED AS LESS THAN WHO GIVE UP AND JUST LEAN INTO IT DESPITE IT ALL HURTING THEM!!
REMEMBER IN THE MIDNIGHT CIRCLE. WHEN HE CONTINUOUSLY FAILS HIS TRIALS AND THE MIDNIGHT CIRCLE ACTS V CONDESCENDING TOWARD HIM. AND THE OTHERS ARE LIKE DO YOU NEED HELP AND HES LIKE WELL I WAS AB TO SAY IT BUT NOW YOU'RE MAKING ME FEEL STUPID. DO YOU EVER THINK ABOUT HOW HE DOESN'T LIKE TO BE SEEN AS STUPID!!!!!!!!!!!!! HE CARES!!!! (FIZZFANGS)!!!!!! AND DO WE EVER THINK ABOUT HOW THE MIDNIGHT CIRCLE TOLD HIM "MAYBE YOU NEEDED TO BE BEAT UP TO LEARN YOUR LESSON" (OR SMTH) AND HOW HE DOESN'T REALLY TALK BACK AFTER THAT?? DO WE THINK ABOUT HOW AT THE START OF THE SEASON EMIZEL'S FIRST RESPONSE WHEN LEARNING HIS FATHER CAN'T KNOW AB THE VAMP STUFF BUT HE DOES, IS "Okay then kill him i don't care." (OR SMTH) BUT WHEN ANOTHER OPTION OS PRESENTED HES LIKE "Well. I hate him but i don't want him dead. But. Do whatever you have to do" OR SMTH. AND THEN WHEN GIVEN THE OPTION 8 EPISODES LATER IN THE MIDNIGHT CIRCLE HE GIVES UP HIS MEMORY OF HIS DAD, WHO WAS SPARED BACK THEN, WITH NO SECOND THOUGHT................. DOES ANYONE WANT TO DISCUSS THIS, THIS RELATIONSHIP IS SO FUCKING WEIRD???? ESP WITH THE DESCRIPTION OF THEM AS BOSS AND EMPLOYEE?????? AND HOW EMIZEL WANTED SHILO TO KILL HIM IN JEFFERY'S MEMORIES???? AND AND AND WHEN THEO AND SHILO WENT BACK TO JEFFERY'S HOUSE AND SHILO TOLD EMIZEL THERE WAS A BUNCH OF BLOOD EVERYWHERE AND EMIZEL WENT "oh yeah that's normal"??????
WEIRD.
GFRRGGGGRT. DO WE THINK ABOUT HOW HE VIEWS HIMSELF AS SO EXPENDABLE BECAUSE HE WAS NEVER TREATED AS VALUABLE BEYOND HIS EMPLOYEE STATUS TO HIS FATHER?? ALSO HOW THE FIRST PERSON TO TRULY VALUE HIM WAS PROBABLY THEO.???????????????????????????????? FIZZFANFS. BUT DO WE EVER THINK ABOUT HOW HE REALLY DIDN'T HAVE A WAY OF KNOWING HE'D SURVIVE DYING AT ELYSIUM IN CHARACTER??? BUT HE ATTACKED DAYBRINGER SOLOMON FOR STATUS, TO BE SEEN AS VALUABLE TO THE COMMUNITY AND AS SOMEONE WORTHY OF POWER???? DO WE EVER THINK ABOUT HOW WILLING HE IS TO GIVE HIMSELF UP TO THE WEYLINS TO MODIFY???? DO WE EVER THINK ABOUT THE IMPLICATIONS OF THAT FOR HIS SELF-IMAGE??????
FRANKLY DO WE EVER THINK ABOUT HOW THE ONLY PERSON THAT VALUES HIM FOR HIM IS THEO AND FOR ALL HE KNOWS HE LOST HIM ALONG WITH HIS HUMANITY IN THE FINALE AFTER WHICH HE WROTE A LETTER THAT NO ONE WOULD READ AND THEN LET HIMSELF BURN UP IN THE LIGHT OF THE SUN????? FUCK!!!!!!
