#playlisting

i set out with the intention to capture the feeling from the girl in speak that Kristen stewart movie. i watched it when i was 15 and i felt like i was watching a mirror. i alway felt unheard as a kid and when looking back at my childhood now there’s a lot of static. it’s not something i have fond memories of, it’s just lonely. i went through a similar experience as the protagonist and those feelings crippled me during high school.

with this playlist i wanted to encapsulate the feeling not of loneliness but of like being so in between u don’t know who u are and u can’t feel anything anymore. there’s a lot of whatever dad, mojave 3, florist, vashti bunyan, and more

i hope you like it and kind of get the vibe i was going for<3

So, naturally, I went and made a playlist for blorbo from my thesis.

This may have started as a high-effort shitpost/committing to the bit/saying "bet", but I did actually take it reasonably seriously, so cheat code to "why the fuck did it choose those songs":

songs that are about being different versions of the same person are because it's the same information compressed in different shapes

similarly any lyrics about transformation/changing shape/being trapped in a shape/etc

the ghost in the machine song also refers in my reasoning to the shared information that should exist across all the shapes

the labyrinth song is bc I'm currently working on trying to use a functor that basically runs the usual complex through other q shapes like a "thread"

songs about wanting to be wild/unknowable/avoid being pinned down because. Well. Yeah. But also with a thread of implication of someone thinking (singer) should be knowable/tameable