So a conversation I had with @nocommentcat a few days ago made me realize people donāt know why I named my fic āPlanted one day by a glancing dartā (and why I didnāt capitalize each wordā yes I know the proper punctuation would be that but this is how the fic is titled *for a reason*). I just kinda wanted to yap a little bit about it so bear with me lol.
So all my fics are titled after song lyrics except for the fic where I post the drafts for Planted. I have two Bioshock fics on the main pseudo of my AO3 account and two TADC fics on my AlliumSympathy pseudo.
Just be warned, even tho these were posted just last year I donāt think my Bioshock ones are very good. I hate first person but I let my brother convince me to write them in first person and it made them *suck*.
The song I got the titles from is āTongues and Teethā by the Crane Wives. The song lyric is āI know that you mean so well/But I am not a vessel for your good intentā. The series title, āTeeth are all I can give to youā, are also references to āTongues and Teethā. The lyric itās based on is āIāve grown a mouth so sharp and cruel/Itās all that I can give to youā.
Why did I use āTongues and Teethā? Itās not just because I suck at naming things (though I do), itās because of how the song reads to me. Itās basically a person feeling theyāre unlovable and will only hurt the people they love but if the person theyāre singing to accepts that they can stay. I wanted to explore that bc I see both Subject Delta and Eleanor Lamb seeing themselves as the singer and the other as the person theyāre singing to.
Now obviously I donāt think I really got that across because trying to write in first person really made my brain itch in a bad way.
With my two TADC fics I feel a lot better about, I picked both their titles from the song āDaisy Bellāā one because of its association with AIs being the first song sung by a computer, two because I really like āDaisy Bellā, three because itās a love song and that has a deliciously painful irony.
āI and my Daisy Bellā is the first fic I wrote inspired by @fadinglight3443 Hijacked AU, based on a doodle they did in response to an ask I sent. The full line of what it comes from is āWe will go tandem as man and wife/Daisy, Daisy!/Peddling away down the road of life/I and my Daisy Bellā
This fic is what it says on the tin: Abel forces Caine to dance with him. He taunts Caine by singing Caineās favorite song, which in this context makes Caine extra uncomfy bc of the romantic connotations of not just the song but dancing as well. The sorta homo-erotic tension of forcing your enemy to dance with you kinda thing.
The fully lyric of where āPlanted one day by a glancing dartā comes from is āThere is a flower within my heart/ Daisy, Daisy!/ Planted one day by a glancing dart/ Planted by Daisy Bellā.
I think this one is kinda self explanatory, but one big thing I want to explore in Planted is hypocrisy and the tendency of people to blame the other person when they do something bad rather than feel guilty about themselves. A sorta āthey made me do it, itās their faultā kinda thing. āI wouldnāt have done it if they hadnāt done this thing firstā.
This especially with the trend of people feeling some sort of lust and rather than control themselves blame the person theyāre sexualizing. Iām Christian, AFAB on top of that. Iāve been told my whole life to cover up. To not be a temptation. Even though Jesus says if your eye causes you to sin you should pluck it out. š
So Iām sorta exploring the two sides that mindset producesā the guilt over having anything bad happening to you (because thatās all that mindset does. Produce *immense* amount of guilt in the victim) and the guilt of feeling any want to *do* that leading not to a decrease in the behavior but a more violent doing of the thing and just blaming the other person.
āI may have done that thing, but the desire was planted in me by that other person.ā
Anyways. Thatās me done yapping about my writing process :3